This feeling's taken control

2010-01-31T01:17:00.000-08:00

RELINKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

www.run-dontwalk.tumblr.com

2010-01-29T08:49:00.000-08:00

Yes, you're a bloody liar.

I'm pissed with myself for believing in you and with you for lying to me all these while.

All these while , you lied.

PS, should i move my blog to tumblr?

they have pretty pictures :DDD

2010-01-26T05:14:00.000-08:00

the two GL friends with GL faces and GL answers :DDD

studying MATHS after school with chicken and sthethy :DDD

muahaha finally did some maths hmwk and actually UNDERSTOOD IT !!

with the help of stacy patiently explaining and chicken gual lan - ing distracting me !

haha thanks load you two !

i'm pissed -.-

whats your freaking problem man!

i feel like writing a whole ranting post , but then again, forget it.

just forget it.

i totally lost every single bit of trust in you,

~~is that what a teammate is supposed to be~~

i know that you all care, but..
i cant seem to open up to anyone else anymore.

2010-01-23T19:43:00.001-08:00

Pretty flowers! Loveddd. ♥

yesterday was a busy day !

woke up freaking early (7++!!!) in the morning.

changed and got my stuff and headed off to some immigration building all the way in lavender with family.

parents are applying for singapore citizenship second time!

mum got rejected the first time.

omg i dont want to change my citizenship, i want balek kampong when i'm old :D

after that parents drove to tau pa yoh for apparently no reason ._.

then dropped me off at simei and i train-ed to tanah merah at 12!

met up with esther first, cause the rest were late ! O:

ziyin and vernis both thought meeting at 12.50 ? brenda didnt know ?

anw, after every one arrived we took train to outram park ! :D

train was crowded and had to stand all the way DD:

changed train towards habourfront ! haha.

reached habourfront and got into VIVO !

yay, so long never go there liao.

hah meet up with sze min and louis !

went around looking for smth to drink / adidas!

got to adidas and meet up with freda and chicken ! :D

went into the adidas shop and started to order our shoe ^^

xinglei yijun and some other people came :D

wish our shoe didnt have any blue parts thoughh.. :X

walked around and took some group photos :D

haha then after went to get lunch at long john silvers!

ate 8 freaking shrimps + fries + a large tea.

the tea was really largeeeeeeeee -.-

amanda looks SUPER CUTE in two ponytails :DDDDD

freda and yijun and brenda left !

after lunch went to outdoor playground to play and take photos ! :D

muahaha. :D fun.

after playing decided to go hunt down some flowers at vivo for the band concert !

chicken got ~~scammed~~ a flower at pocket full of poises or dont know what.

then we left vivo :D

took train with chicken vernis and ziyin :D

me chicken and ziyin dropped off at bedok leaving poor lil vernis on her way back to pasir ris :P

ziyin left while me and chicken went to get pretty flowers for bacnd concert at bedok centre!

:333 hence the artistic shot of the pretty flowers on top ^^

cabbed back school. we are lazy people :D

haha reached school super early and went to canteen.

talked and talked about some stuffs :D

till sijin came!

then siying ! then yingxin! then shujuan ! then some other guys !

played a game of daidee.

i totally sucked at daidee -.- i had 3 ace and dee yet i still lost ._.

and blackjack, but i exploded OO:

time was up so we went up tp the hall for the concert!

the concert was cool :D

first time school hall's aircon was blasting !

nice concert, band people !

though i cant really see anythhing ><

halfway, during the interval me and chicken went to give our flowers to stacy ! haha super funny. chicken so ps !

went around to go talk to some people :D

haha then interval finished and we went back to our seats and yani and yy joined in !

muahah :D had fun slapping yani together with yy.

my phone died but i wanted to take photos, so i changed my mem card with sijin

I FREAKING DROPPED MY MEM CARD SOME HOW.

so i freaked out. people started to lik bend down and helping me find it.

THANKS !

then sijin found it as the lights were coming on and the concert was ending.

:D Praise the Lord !

went around and took some photos :D haha.

chicken and stacy hugged :DDDDDDDDDD haha.

apart from seeing how embarassed chicken was after hugging stacy,

it was really nice (:

haha then went around and talked here talk there, take photos.

then chicken's father came so she had to go inter.

she tong pang sijin's car downhill but i tong pang sijin's car home!

muahah. home sweet home :D

crashed and died after bathing !

photos will be on FB! :D

thanks staceeey for the hug (:

2010-01-22T07:54:00.000-08:00

okay, i decided to blog !

school has been rather ... eventful these few days!

yesterday was a half day for anglican high! yay.

went to eat 18 chefs with chicken amanda and sze min !

fun with mr bean haha.

came back to school watch matches and study !

today was ... a new experience?

school was fun!

finally drew our angel and mortal lots!

wonder who is my lovely angel haha!

had training and team talk today..

AHS BASKETBALL GIRLS C DIVISION ALL THE WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

we've all came a long way to reach where we are, to become who we are.

let's not give up now.

i know the team is not super bonded , but we shall always try.

it doesnt matter even if we fail, even if some people will still tend to be left out, but we can always TRY.

i believe that anything is possible, so why not!

圣中篮球队，加油！

Amanda,

We cant do without you.

Stand up and stay strong!

We are all here for you!

LOOKING FORWARD to team outing tmr ! (:

finally understood the meaning of a T.E.A.M. !

thanks people! lets work hard together for the zonals and nationals this year :D

2010-01-17T05:58:00.000-08:00

WOO!

spent my weekends in malaysia! ^^

okay things really changed alot last year / this year (:

i used to really hate going back malaysia because its like really rural and have no computers and stuffs like that.

but right now i really enjoy the time i spent there with my family, watching tv, reading playing and all that.

its like really a God given paradise where i can sort of escape to and catch a breathe. (:

Thank You.

this weekend was more special !

celebrated my grandpa's 84th birthday ^^

which is like the 'second' CNY to the family !

saw all my beloved cousins and family !

ate lotsa food and had a fabulous time with them !!

heeh ps i can hold quite alot of liquor :P

talked alot and stuffs yeah.

planning for a outing that they are gonna come singapore and we're gonna go out together :DDD

YAY really really looking forward to march holidays and CNY !

YAY(:

trng tmr.. ._.

bye.

JIAYOUS B'DIV GIRLS TMR FOR THE ZONALS! :D

2010-01-14T06:21:00.000-08:00

" ► the laughter, ▌▌ the memories, █▌ the pain, ◄◄ the happiness."

by far, my favourite facebook fan page (:

tmr's last day of second week in school.

things have been rather stressful and depressing :\\\

lotsa project work and trainings, totally draining energy and mood!

but thankfully i have people around me that really cheers me up!

i was thinking of this someday while i was bathing..

Making some one who you are proud of , proud of you.

see, we Christian worship God and is proud of him,

do you want Him to feel proud too ?

do you want Him to feel " hey, thats my son / daughter on earth ! " ?

do something that will make HIM proud of US, instead of the other way round (:

i seem to get strength from hiding my emotions and trying to be happy.

weird huh , but it works.

2010-01-12T07:07:00.000-08:00

GOSH LIFE IS CRAZY.

these two weeks have been crazy with trainings and homework and all sorts of things.

i really cant take it anymore, at this point.

i feel like giving up, i feel like hiding in my blanket for the rest of tomorrow.

i feel like crying and wondering why my life is such a failure, i feel like dying.

i feel like vomitting, i feel like hurting.

but i wont. PERSEVERIAN'09.

why?

Cause He didnt give up too.

wow, you "BOO!(:" me just when i needed someone to talk to.

thanks nat, you dont know how much it means to me to make me smile at this moment.

2010-01-06T05:57:00.000-08:00

New year, the old me is back (:

YAY i offically 3 days of sec 2 life !!! omg!
hah today was okay..P.
P.E. Jiaolian is my teacher.. (is that a good thing ? :P )
Malay teacher seems pretty nice ! :D
ate two fishballs from the bowl of laksa i shared with shujuan -.-
won 1 small lil vanhouten's chocolate during home econ :DD yay.
was late for history :x but nice teacher didnt mind ^^
moved tables and chairs during english ! EL groups!
expression was NICE (3 love the songs alot.

after school,
wanted to go eat lunch with Janelle and Olivia.
hehe but cute olivia had trng so she go first :D
then went to 2D to find yijia ( janelle want to go take her tibits LOL )
walked past 2B and sijin asked me if i want to join the SHPS ppl for lunch at 18 chefs :D
so i asked janelle to go also! and she asked wanrong to go also ! :DDD
but they left first , so i waited in 2B with sijin for hill fion nat!
went to 2E with sijin to find them and walked pass 2D!
2D was choosing class comm members and we were standing outside the classroom looking :D it was actually waiting for julia !!!
then the teacher inside say
" come in and sit luh, got tables !"
i wanted to walk away cause we were like sort dicturbing them, but i saw the rest
WALKING INTO THE CLASS ROOM .
so i followed :D
sat at the back of the class room on the floor and cheered along for every announcement of a CC member.
super funny / embarassing / dumb . :D
found out that julia wasnt going 18 chef with us so we left the classroom !
hill went home first , so we walked down hill to take train !
after reaching 18 chefs we ordered our food !!
I LOVE CREAMY WHITE BAKED RICE !! (3333333333333333333333
talked alot , though wanrong didnt really knew them haha :D
FUN !
after eating sijin took out some permenant markers and started doodling around the wall..
so it ended up with the whole part of the glass wall full of..
" WAN RONG " " WAN RONG FOR SALE" " JOANNE FOR SALE" " JOANNE FOR FREE (+$100)" " JANELLE FOR SALE " " FIONA NATASHA" AND the PINEAPPLE GUY :DDD !!
superrrrrrrrr funny and totally noisy !! XDDD

after that we left 18 chefs!
janelle and wanrong had to leave first, fion had to catch the bus :D
so left with me sijin and natasha !
went to tm cause sijin needed to buy smth. :D
artbox plays nice songs and sells nice stuffs !!
bought freda's present shunbian :D
then went home !

SUPER FUN DAY OUT WITH YOU PEEP THANKS ! love yah!

today, i was talking to natasha on the train about some people, S.
then i asked her smth, and she answered ..
" 可能是你跟她的缘分 bah. " (its about a friend, pls dont think wrongly)
and i dont know why, at that point of time, everything seemed to " opened up ".
a thought occured to my mind that..
everyone we meet in our lives have 缘分 with us.
because everything that happens doesnt just happen, its in God's hands.
because every single lil that thing we go through, that happened, was not by chance.
suddenly felt that i am really lucky that i had met so many people and went through many things.
people which i can feel at ease with i am with them enough to laugh out loud.
Its really how amazing God's power is, that He has a plan for everyone of us.
that every person you walked pass, every thing you see, He had alreadly all planned it out.
that nothing is by chance,
everything that happens happens for a reason - God's plan to prosper you but not to harm you.
I realised how wonderful my life is, how truly beautiful it is (:
that i was borned healthily and safely in singapore with parents who love me.
that i grew up in an environment where love was abundant but never too much.
that i studied in JYPS and fell in love with volleyball.
that i transferred schools and know about God and many loved friends.
that i got into AHS and 1E and 2A and enjoy life.
MANY MANY MORE. (:

I LOVE LIFE.

i will treasure things in the present rather than living in self deluge of the past.
i will love life and live it the fullest instead of thinking ways to make myself hurt or die.
i will move on from the past and LOOK FORWARD to the future ahead of me.
i will learn from my mistakes and try to never ever do the same thing twice.
i will try to love everyone and make WORLD PEACE (:

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME .
Phillipians 3:14.

Dear heavenly Father,
I wanna thank You Lord for Your mighty love upon us.
i wanna thank You Lord that You have a plan for us and everthing will work out for us.
i wanna thank You Lord that You never fail us, You never leave us.
God i pray for every single person on earth that if they should feel any pain, emptiness ,
that Lord You will guide them in Your way and lead them to You,
because You are the only one who can heal them, who understands them.
Lord i give you my heart , take my llife , take my heart.
Because only You can hold them.
THANK YOU GOD FOR MY LIFE. I DOES NOT S*CK.
In JESUS name i pray,
AMEN.

endingg with a picture .

2010-01-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

2010-01-02T08:13:00.000-08:00

" We were bored" - chen hui ting's post title !

heh. woke up at 11 today,
ate breakfast and called cht asked her out ! wanted to follow my bro go buy guitar.
took my parents car to bedok mrt, with my bro.
meet up with my bro's friend (A) and waited at the platform for friend (B) for an hour -.-
finally took train to city hall and started to walk to penneysula plaza (???)
the whole place was filled with like GUITARS.
many designs and types of guitars.
golden, electric, silver, acoustic, black, bass, white, classical. SO MANY.
super nice !!! gonna master guitar someday and buy myself the guitar that i saw :3
decided on the guitar that we were gonna buy.
there was this really nice acoustic brown, black smaller and softer and MUCH PRETTIER one. that i begged my bro to get !!!
but my bro said it was too soft -.-
so ended up with a black FAT one, arghhh!!!!
got the stuffs ready and paid money.
then they wanted to left to their friends' house,
they're having a ~~slumber party~~ sleepover .
so me and cht decided to just random walk around there.
stopped by at OLD CHANG KEE :D bought fried prawns and she bought fried chickennnn.
heeh then decided to go changi airport ! (she suggested it i agreed :D )
train-ed to changi airport then decided to go shujuan's to visit her :D
heh so we took train to tamp and bus 81-ed there !
lol met up with shujuan, passed her her pressie and talked for like an hour :D
funn haha.
toook 518 home , it was express so cht paid 1.70 cash and i paid in ezlink money -.-
reached home (:

reached home 5 minutes my parents go out eat -.-
so i didnt even bathe and i was stinking like some dead fish ..
after eating went to go walk walk at carrefour .
ate sushi and bought candy canes :3
after that , home sweet home with a nice bathe !

great day , overall .

like i would make a frigging difference in the team .

exceptthateverythingsamessicanttakeit. wishicoulddosmthforyouahmah): sorryimauselessgranddaughter.

2009-12-29T02:26:00.000-08:00

BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
from malaysia ! after 11 days or so.
it was boring, but i got caught up with some hmwk.

missed like 4 trainings ):
all stamina somemore. woahlao i can go die alr luh..
losing hope and will! ):

ahh, christmas !
how was sg's christmas people? heard it was great (:
finally spent my christmas a lil different than staying at home at staring at the tv screen.:D
went to cousins' bbq !
wasnt super big or anything, but had fun and ate lotsa satays !

it feels like i'm the only person left on earth.
yeah, bye.

2009-12-25T07:13:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

sorry cant be in town D:
been missing trng . arggh

2009-12-17T08:36:00.001-08:00

LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA FOR A WEEK ):

MISSING LIKE 3 TRAININGS. ARGH OMG.

2009-12-17T08:04:00.000-08:00

5/9'07 BBQ WAS A TOTAL BLAST !
THANK YOU GUYS !
~~too damn bad we're not friends anymore.~~

the day began with meeting up with sijin at t1 / tm !
went to go get some stuffs, hee. :P
then we train-ed the way to orchad to collect her phone and to get lunch !
Bacon and mushroom cream pasta !! lovedd.
haa then came back to tampines, i went home to get my ice box while she went back to wash stuffs (:
went to her house and prepare the stuffs needed!
got to bus stop , took 23 to 938 and crossed bridge and took 10!
gotten onto the same bus as huang lao shi !!! (SECOND TIME FOR ME :D )
arrived at east point green and huang lao shi helped to pay for the catering stuffs!
ppl also start to arrive !
we went up to huang lao shi's house and had lotsa laugh! :D
it was a blast! super fun!!
natasha's my NEW MAID :D
ABIGAIL IS TALL!! AHH.
yijun was totally embarassed when huang lao shi asked.. " then the GL leh? whose ? " (chinese)
Super fUN :D

went down then got to start the fire ! yay !
the bbq food was great !
the guys totally failed :P
julia sijin shirlynn and i were taking turns to bbq it was fun haha !
totally love the smell :D
near ending time i went to the swing with sijin and had a good time talking with her..
was about to talk about smth other than taylor lautner when...
we saw the all- so adorable julia skipping in and shouting
" JIE WO WAN YI XIA ! "
which totally spoiled the mood !
at least shannon didnt shout !
haha then went back to " play " truth or daree/
which we didnt -.-
so started clearing stuffs.. ._.
after packing tongbang sijin's car to safra and walked home !

FUN AND TIRING DAY (: THANK YOU GUYS LETS HAVE ANOTHER 5/9'07 GATHERING AGAIN PLEASE MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCHH! LOVEEEEZXZXZXXXZXZ.

the pain fresh and raw.

2009-12-16T06:42:00.000-08:00

today i went back to the new JYPS to get books for my brother!
they have an indoor volleyball court!
wanted to go check out other parts of the school when a teacher stopped me.
that teacher was my ballet TIC!!
it had been YEARS since i saw her.

just realised how much my life have changed in a few years.
so much that it surprised me that i didnt search "volleyball" at devianart when i searched "basketball" probably a thousand times.
just realised how much i miss playing volleyball. with them.

but, life's gotta go on.
2010's a new start, gotta move on !
i dont seem to find myself missing you anymore. (:

tmr's 5/9'07 bbq !
wonder how things will turn out.

2009-12-15T04:41:00.000-08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTH !

♥

Your love is the greatest gift of all. (:

My family's been every objective of You,
but I will never give up.
You will change their thinking and
they will approve of You being in my heart someday!

haha its not what it sounds like.
people who took extra notice will know (:

2009-12-14T06:11:00.000-08:00

I AM DETERMINED TO LEARN HERE I AM TO WORSHIP ON GUITAR !!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
cheers me up.

2009-12-14T05:02:00.001-08:00

Really thank God for a senior like you Rachel (:
thanks for the lil talk yest night, meant alot to me..

training later,
i can make it !
have a feeling going to do stairs ><

2009-12-13T06:27:00.000-08:00

i never thought,
that a heart could crack along the same fault lines a thousand times,
without ever falling apart,
that a scar on a wrist could be slit over and over and over again,
without ever bleeding to death,
that one's inner faith could be battered every now and every then,
without ever being lost.

i refuse to give in.
i did nothing wrong.
i will stand for myself, for the first time in my life.

I LOVE THIS.
i made it okay !!!
sudden inspiration yest night (:

2009-12-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

Girl who silenced UN for 5 minutes.

The Girl Effect.

2009-12-12T05:46:00.001-08:00

today was a great day ^^
i love big white balls.

will edit this post when i'm free. (:

~~at the point of breaking down~~

2009-12-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

had been busy lately..
trng and stuffs.

today's trng was TIRING ):
hee but shooting at the last part was fun!
went tm with esther, pasta mania !
okay stuff there so ex so i didnt drink anything -.-
then went home.
sick -.- down with fever !
hope it will go away by tmr..
k, short post, gonna sleep early tonight !

PS PEOPLE IF YOU SEE THIS AND YOU ARE FREE TMR, PLEASE GO TO TAKASHIMAYA , NGEE ANN CITY THERE !! I WILL BE THERE WITH A BIG HUGE BALL ASKING PEOPLE WRITE ! PLEASE COME SUPPORT :3333333333

PPS OMG TABITHA NOT IN SINGAPORE IDOL FINALS? THATS SO UNFAIR !! SINGAPORE IS SEXIST OMG :\\\\\\\\\\\\
IF THIS YEAR'S SINGAPORE IS A GUY AGAIN IM NOT GONNA WATCH SINGAPORE IDOLS AGAIN !!!!

): guess you hate me , too ?
why? what'd i did this time round?
miss you so much ):

2009-12-06T06:01:00.000-08:00

DETERMINED.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Phillipians 4:13

today's service was great ^^
meet shujuan at bedok inter, waited for like an hour cause i was early T.T
then went macs, bought mac wings haha :D
huixin arrived ! after eating went to take 229 to church (:
sang really nice songs! love them !
then speaker andrew yeo preeached, hes a funny man !
haha then had an altar call (right? ), almost the whole room went up.
then except for shujuan ._. she like went to stand at the side of the room or smth..
sang songs that were really touching, then leaders began to pray for us.
thanks (:
it was really touching. cried.
felt kinda released after the leader prayed for me (:
after that sang a few songs again then went back to the seats !
then after the ending like talk,
eunice gave me and huixin our bibles today ! ^^ YAY.
haha service ended and we walked to the bedok mrt, trained to tamp and went home (:

i dont know why, maybe God's calling, but after today's service i felt more strong than ever!
i suddenly like have the courage to carry on and press on,
like suddenly have that trust in God that my hard work will be paid off.
I BELIEVE. (:
thank God for today.

2009-12-05T06:41:00.000-08:00

click away for those who hate adam lambert !
BLUE EYES !!
NICEEEEE.
nice teethhhhhh.
COOOL .

WHY IS ADAM LAMBERT GAY ? :/
i really wish he not gay loh, if not i think he can WIN america idol!!

whataya want from me - adam lambert is awesome people, do check it out !!

today is totally AWESOME.
went to have dinner buffet with family.
spammed order, it was greaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat.
and i didnt pay hah ^^
it is that like VIP room!! super cool heh.

hadmy first taste of raw tuna,
i regretted it :X tasted kinda bloody ><
ate alot and alot and alot of salmon !!
my favourite <3333
and like 3 bowls of CHAWANMUSHI !!
superbbb. cute bowls.
hmmm ate alot and alot !
was practically like lying down to make myself more comfortable!

haha great day! :D have been looking forward to today for long timeee.
church tmr ^^ yay going with shujuan and huixin :D

2009-12-02T22:57:00.000-08:00

today was probably the worst day of my life
the end.

btw this post was on 3 / 12 / 09 but blogger is screwed -.-

2009-12-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG TIRED LIKE $^#(*^&$*&)$.

had gym today ^^
very tiring.
tmr have trng in the MORNING.
really tired ):
~~UNFAIR~~
idk why but i'm kinda pisssed with you.

2009-11-25T07:18:00.000-08:00

i'm bored !

woke up at 12 today !
then yani wanted to go lunch so we went out ~
met up at tm at 1.30 with yani and yixuan,
saw lot sa sjab people on my way.
went up to kopitiam and they had their lunch while i got CHAWAMUSHI :DD
haa then raelene came~
went around to walk in tm and t1~
all the sports stuffs are like super nice man !!
ate xi men ! super nice :DD fried mushroom and chicken cutlet ^^
then went to macs again. xuan and rae went to get their shaker fries?
saw vernis there ! hah still got your contacts on hor !
yixuan left first, so we three were at macs playing raelene's ITOUCH.
fun neh!!

haha using one of my gifts to write a whole book full of really nice quotes!!
if any readers have really meaningful quotes please tell me or tag yeah !!!!

2009-11-22T05:20:00.000-08:00

i was up last night using my phone and typing 4 msg.
4 msg to each of my besties in 1E.
cause this year ended and wanna do a post dedication ^^
(PS the order of the post is NOT the order of you all in my heart yeah?)

To (my) shujuan :
haha, your first, be happy.
i wanna say a big THANK YOU to you.
thanks for being my best friend.
thanks for cracking a smile in me with your awesome directional senses and coolest dance moves.
thanks for being the shoulder that i could rely on, even if you knew nothing that i was going through.
thanks for all the times you've listened to me when i rant about stuffs.
thanks for scolding or tolerating me whenever i'm in the wrong or doing something stupid.
thanks for being so forgiving when i was in the wrong.
thanks for protecting me in all the times i didnt know.
thanks for every single little thing you've done for me, despite me stupidly thinking its unreasonable.
really really <3 you to the little bits and pieces of the cutest potato on earth !

to (my) janelle :
aww dont be sad that youre second post, (have to give in to shujuan XD)
i wanna ruffle your hair. :3
thanks for being my best friend.
thanks for encouraging me when i got bad results and grumble over them.
thanks for always telling me about God and inviting me to your church.
thanks for being the middle girl of me and shujuan when we got into fights.
thanks for being born one day later than me making me feel so SHOIK!
thanks for being so cute and childish which never fails to make me laugh at you.
thanks for sacrificing your revising time in the morning to go down to the canteen with me.
thanks for all the sweet lil things that you doodled on say that YOU love ME :D
i really thank God that i got to be in the same class as you (AGAIN, after p5 :D) and be best friends. and btw its kinda cool, if the classes for 2010 dont change and then we'll be in the same class 3 times !
I LOVE YOU.

to (my) raelene :
youre third ! :333333333
i wanna throw stuffs at you to wake you up !
thanks for being my best friend.
thanks for listening to me whenever i needed you.
thanks for sleeping in class giving me the chance to throw stuffs at you to wake you up!
thanks for all the times you said and meant " i'm always here for you" .
thanks for passing notes to me during lesson which were the only things that kept me alive at then.
thanks for walking into my world when the world walked out on me.
thanks for being HOLYHOLY <3
thanks for telling me about God and encouraging me.
thanks for being able take the disappointment i've given you.
you're one of the mooooooost sweet person i've meet on planet earth (:
<3 YOU.

to (my) isabel :
aww you're last, so i'll write more !
i wanna give you a great big HUG and hold on just a bit longer!
thanks for being my best friend.
thanks for being able to stay back after to school or go out with me.
thanks for all the times we've spent together, finishing our art project, play / teach me piano, talk , play with chips!
thanks for teaching the one and only thing i dreamed of and never thought i could - play lil bit of piano!
thanks for having the awesome mindset that somehow was similar with mine , which got us talking alot.
thanks for always being there beside me , so i wont fall and stumble on my own.
thanks for always holding my hand, physically and metaphorically, pulling me through the tough times of my life.
thanks for all the fun you've bought into my life.
thanks for singing together with me at crazy and random times!
thanks for (at least ) saying that my voice isnt thaat as bad as shujuan and raelene claim.
thanks for loving me !
i have really enjoyed myself around you, cause you make me feel at ease being myself.
love yah (:

" i had only known them for a year, but if you stretch each and every moment every memory end to end, they'll reach forever. "

thank you girls for making my year in 1E great,
<3

2009-11-20T07:07:00.000-08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
went to library today, was in real BAD mood ):
but after i found this book , that i was searching for like FOREVER, i was chao high !! ^^
yay, off reading and mapling ^^
ps bought new 8gb mem card !!! YAY !!!
thank God for today ^^
pps listening to " God's Calling " sermon on generations.sg now.

2009-11-19T07:17:00.000-08:00

2A

omgg.
with janelle :3

2009-11-15T08:11:00.000-08:00

HAD THE MOST AWESOME SUNDAY AT BETHESDA CATHEDRAL !!!
with yy isabel huixin yani raelene qiqi yixuan stephanie yuwen chicken yijun freda ~

had service for like 1 hours plus.
real nice (:
hope everyone is okay ((:
played captains ball !
won one out of 4 matches ! :D contented liao ~
whole team netballers except for me LOL.
hahaha went to have dinner after that ~
macs :D i won two small fries ^^

had a great time yeah (:

I got saved <3
15-11-2009.

group pic !

2009-11-14T02:19:00.000-08:00

save you <3 kelly clarkson

I can tell
I can tell how much you hate this
And deep down inside you know it's killing me
I can call
Wish you well and try to change this
But nothing I can say would change anything

Where were my senses?
I left them all behind
Why did I turn away?
Away

I wish I could save you
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright

Didn't mean
Didn't mean to leave you stranded
Went away cause I didn't want to face the truth
Reaching out
Reach for me
Empty handed
You don't know if I care
You're trying to find the proof

There were times I'd wonder
Could I have eased your pain?
Why did I turn away?
Away

I wish I could save you
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
Save you
It's gonna be alright
I wish I could say to you

We
Can pretend nothing's changed
Pretend it's all the same
And there will be no pain
Tonight
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
Save you
It's gonna be alright
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
Save you
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright

i wish..

in a kelly clarkson fever now!

2009-11-13T23:30:00.000-08:00

ALREADY GONE <3 kelly clarkson.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

lying to myself.

2009-11-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

i miss so many people.
holidays sucks ):
homework undone D:

2009-11-11T03:54:00.000-08:00






If anyone asks,
Ill tell them we've both just moved on.
When people all stare,
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride, and bite my tongue.
Pretend I'm OK with it all,
Act like there's nothing wrong.

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart.
(I'll tell them we just grew apart)
What do I care,
If they believe me or not.
(If they believe me or not)
Whenever I feel,
Your memory is breaking my heart.
I'll pretend I'm OK with it all,
Act like there's nothing wrong.

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm Talking in circles.
I'm lying they know it.
Why wont this just stop go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

class chalet was awesome :DDDD

2009-11-08T06:11:00.000-08:00

Faith is believing in something despite not seeing it.

people asked me a million times,
" whats your religion? "
" are you a christian? "
honestly, i dont know what to answer to either of the questions.

i've lived 10 years of my life clueless about God.
when i transferred to saint hilda's primary school,
i was deeply affected by the teachings that they give every morning.
and everyday , i prayed, sincerely, whole-heartedly.
i could felt God's presence inside me. (:
but at home, when i felt like praying or whatever,
i dont dare.
i was so afraid that my parents might see me doing that and kick me out of the house.
so i just ...
it remained the same for practically 2 1/4 years of my school life in saint hildas.
but when people ask me what religion i was at then,
i said i was a buddhist or taoist (i dont even know)
cause my family is..
but in my heart, i wanted to follow God.
i could not, my parents would kick me out of the house,
believe me, they will. my grandma did something (upsetting) when my auntie converted to.. a buddhist. cause my grandma's a taoist.
the faith inside me grew and grew. but it just wasnt strong enough.
whenever i suggested that i want to attend a friend's church for once, or even the word " church " ,
my parents dont even look me in the eye and they say no straight away.

when i got into anglican high ,
i was kind of happy cause it is an anglican school (:

but things were different,
the way they taught us about God, (probably cause we are sitting too far away to hear in the morning)
the way how alot of people are not christian and things that they say somehow affected me..
the way things go around in my head.
so different that it changed me,
that i kind of side tracked..
i didnt pray , thank and think love about God the way i used too ):
i'm sorry..

but someone , yeeeees you , raelene! :P talked to me, showed me, about God (:
she encouraged me, cheered me on, and teaching me all the same time.
and i listened, i prayed & i started to believe again..

there was one assembly this year that left me a deep impression.
i was like sitting all the way up front and super close to the stage.
the song that was sang was so touching and i began to tear up.
the lyrics were simple yet it reached the bottom of my heart.
when the all saint church people asked us to pray, to bow our heads down and close our eyes.
probably cause i was feeling really really really weak and empty inside,
i just kind of cried..
my tears just ran down.
but when i was praying,
i could feel His love filled my heart again.
at then , my heart was actually not hurting and not empty ..
i was like woahhed..
i was leaning onto to the person infront of me
after the prayer i got up from the person's back.
and sniffed cause.. theres those things that you get in your nose when you cried.
then the person turned around and saw me in tears..
haha but she didnt make any fuss out of it, and just looked at me in the eyes..
i dont know why but i felt that her eyes were like saying..
dont worry, i wont say anything (: i understand.
thanks shujuan <3

but there were times that i disappointed Him, people. and you..
i'm really sorry.
i wish i could i explained,
but i guess that my faith is easily shaken..):

i want to find my faith back, i want my faith to stand strong again.
i want to be able to be together enough to someday ask my parents if i can convert.
here's a song that describe how i feel (:

here's the lyrics.

Jesus , take the wheel.
by Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy
With the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low
On faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning
On a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
?Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat
Sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life

I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
?Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go

So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, ooh

2009-11-05T07:12:00.000-08:00

CREAM PUFFS ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL PUFFS ON EARTH !!!

haha went tamp mall with parents,
they went to buy their stuffs at ntuc,
i went to YAMAZAKI to get theses cream puffs.
they're about like the size of a palm,
and they're only $1.60 (each) !!!
go try it out !!!
tee hee cream puff cheers people up (:

2009-11-05T03:09:00.000-08:00

):

seriously, is it cause i cant hold them tightly enough,
or they just slip away on their own?

~~i hate myself sometime~~

2009-10-30T22:58:00.000-07:00

1E 2009 Perseverance

this year is coming to an end..
yesterday was the last day of school.
fun (: spending the last day as a class.
and for once, in the whole year our classroom was CLEAN.
scrubbed the walls, swept the floor, rubbed the tables, wiped the fans, cleaned the windows.
man, i am so going to miss 1E.
it is my one and only secondary one class.
there were ups & downs this year, but we had fun as a class along the way.

next year, when our grades separate us into different classes,
i hope that deep down inside, the memories of our class..
eating in class, getting into troubles, winning awards, having fun..
will always be there.
all the best,
to my one and only perseverance, 1 Eians.
love you all !

2009-10-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

forgetting someone can be like wearing a size 5 sneaker when your foot is 7.
you can get by a few steps but you stop and the shoe out,
cause it just plain hurts too much.

ahhh. i've been sick since like last last week , science paper -.-
flu and sometimes fever.

hmm past few day were fun :D
outings to ecp and ehub.
lazyy to blog about ._.

there's training tmr,
dont even know if i should go to school.
wanna see friends but dont wanna wake up so early and after that have trng ._.
hai see first.

gotta go cause my eyes feel like they're about to burst.

i'm damn sick of this shit.
sometimes i wonder why i get pushed around like a piece of shit.

2009-10-22T02:27:00.000-07:00

LOL.
promised to upload this pic (:
the rest's on facebook !

2009-10-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

Perseverance.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANELLE & SIYING ! love you two ~

janelle :
haha you've grown older !
stay cute and smart and childish the way you are!
thanks for always being there for me!
all the best for studies & netball !
here for you k !

siying :
SUP BRO! yay my younger bro finally turned into a teen :D
stay cool and bro-ish and funny the way you are !
thanks for always making me laugh no matter what !
all the best for studies and SJAB !
here for you bro !

Pe lessons ,
shujuan has the most wonderful sense of direction :D
math lesson, got back results.
T.T pass by 8 marks..
eng lesson, got back results !
got higher than i expected :D i didnt fail !
science lesson ! got back results also :D
yay got good results. lost to shujuan and janelle, buts its okay !

after school was super fun !
siying got oct babes a cake !
cut and ate it :D
pictures and videos to be uploaded in the next post, tmr.
hahaha we got chenhuiting's shirt and FACE with chocolate :D
cool right.

went to stadium,
played matches.
i was like super blur ._.
watched the auntie lucy's movie or smth.
watched lil bit, lame and retarded LOL.
lotsa ppl were inside LOL.

after that went to train.
partner with yijun !
ran for like about 13 minutes non stop and then i couldnt take it..
walked and jog lil bit for the rest of the time.
did sit up and push ups after that haha (:

train-ed with jun xuan rae and huixin back (:

went home , had dinner.
showed parents results.
got interrogated -.-
lay down on my bed for 1 hour ++,
listening to songs, playing games and smsing.
ahhh.i could have done better.but i gave up half way..i'm sorry , i let people down ): but thanks alot to the rest for cheering me on ! couldnt have achieve what i had.
yesterday, i made a picture.
edited it and added on (:
its my phone wallpaper haha.

i wish i can talk to you.

2009-10-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

oh man :3
thanks so much people.

the new environment and people this year,
had really changed me, my thinkings and my behavior..
even if the changes are for good or bad,
i am really thankful for the friends beside me,
accepting and understanding me.
thank you people.
you all are the best gift i received in my whole life (:
love you all!

and special thanks to yijun and yijun..
thanks for the midnight sms and the volleyball <3
really means something to me k (:
wanna know ask me. :D

played volleyball with seniors today ..
super fun :DDD

went to watch movie.
HAEUNDAE the deadly tsunami !
with chicken stacy and lynn ! (:
it super sad D: cried alotttt. LOL.

" 对不起.. "
你还回在乎吗？
现在的我对你来说，
早已不是朋友了。
但你伤心难过的时候，
我的心是痛着的。
为什么？
我也不知道。

2009-10-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

this picture so cool right ! :D
i took in the ehub toilet today haha.

woo went out today !

took neos with yy huixin and rae !!
yay its been long :D
gon get it tmr yay!

saw yani they all and joined in :D

met up with xuan before the movie!
talked, ate SUSHI <3
haa the fifth floor very shiok. (:

went to watch imagine that with YY !
teehee couple seats are super cool.
the movie was great ,
just that got two guys with head sticking out blocking the subtitles.

meet up with the rest after that..
rae went home first D:
thanks for the shirt peep ,
I LOVE IT <3

took train and got off at tamp with yy <3
bused home with yy !
talked along the way (:

hahaa fun overall.
~~sorry, wanted to blog more but ...i dont feel like and dont know how to mention someone. sorry~~

exactly one year ago..
i still rmb, i spent that day with you.

2009-10-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

sunrise today morning in school .

i am currently upset and blasting music into my ears.
music blocks out everything else. including you.

today was fun!
had mini olympics (:
pictures on fb.
after that went to basketball room,
watched the movie..
very touching!
played ball with yijun chicken isabel and yy :D
yay fun, sweat ALOT.
after that went to tamp to eat with yy (:
was on our way to tamp safra for bowling and pool,
and we saw yijun and freda haha !
in the end we all went together :DD
played 3 games of pool and (they) bowled one game ahah!
had fun :D yay !
pics on fb! :D

to my dear ~~friend~~
that was how far i'm gonna let you continue to hurt me.
that was all i need to know to really really die out on you.
i'm not going to cry tonight,
cause i really gave up.
aint no more pain in my heart.
~~fuck you~~

how can you be gone when you were never there for me ?

2009-10-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

Y.A.Y.
joy to the world!

EOY exams are finally OVER.
went out to celebrate !
haha after the paper everyone was super high.
the class ppl went tamp safra to bowl,
netballers went to pig out LOL.
went to 18 chefs with chicken!

it was supposed to be a 1D class outing, ~~or so chicken told me -.-~~
meet up with her at school gate and waited for the class, which was apparently a clique.
there were like only 7 1D who went LOL - chicken, ju, hill, fion, nat lynn and stacy. :D
friendly julia, hillary and huixin said HI to grace LOL while waiting.
trained to simei,, it was only like 11, 18 chefs werent open, so we went to NTUC to buy KINDERJOY :D

the creamy white baked rice at 18 chef ROCKS man.
together with 18 chefs' home made ice lemon tea.
woo.
i'm gonna drag my brother there one day and make him treat me :DDD
yay.

some interesting facts i duduced today :D

fiona is a lesbian :P
wenxuan has a friend SNAIL, which was as slow as her lmao.
stacy is really COOL to stare at. :D
fiona and wenxuan the retarded was lip singing & putting alot of retarded emotions into it.
lynn still calls me sexy voice LOL. i having flu!
i can move stacy and lynn ( separately) using my legs !!! :D
julia fell because she saw a hot 50 YEAR OLD guy. ~ hormones eh !
hillary thinks i am a lesbian and that my successor is fiona. ._. LOL.
chicken got freaked out by her relative BIRD. LOL so brave.

after eating went to tampines.
ju hill nat lynn and stacy went to walk walk LOL.
fiona and wenxuan went to the library!
me and chicken decided to go tamp safra to find the peepo there bowling and PLAY POOL :D

reached there but they were finishing up,
but we went to POOL. lol.
nice game, chicken won me. duh!
i shoot how many jump balls sia -.-
played one game and let retarded primary 4 & 5 kiddos play.

bowled one game, and the meanwhile lotsa ppl left.
singqiang is super can !
chicken's friend , anthony, came and wanted to pass her smth (?)
then he kenna pangsehhed. LOL.
waited for like 2 hours for pool tables, which we DID NOT get in the end -.-
yijun came !
had nothing to do and started playing truth or dare.
tired of waiting and walked home after that.

:D yay, quite a fun day.

I WANT TO EAT 18 CHEFS AGAIN !!!

恨總比愛容易放下
why does my heart hurt so badly.

i'd rather you hate me now,
and let go of me easier.

淚水將我淹沒到底誰該難過
究竟是誰放掉這段感情
我才終於明白辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴她我不愛她
笑著難過自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴她我還想她
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口就讓沉默代替所有回答

我才終於明白辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴她我不愛她
笑著難過自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴她我還想她
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口就讓沉默代替所有回答

我不愛我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心話言不由衷

請告訴她我不愛她
笑著難過自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴她我還想她
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口就讓沉默代替所有回答

別告訴她我還想她就讓沉默代替所有回答

2009-10-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

all the best for the upcoming exams (:
all i can do is * shakes head & sigh* after reading your updates.

2009-10-10T07:43:00.000-07:00

happy birthday chen hui ting !

muahaha.
thanks for everything that you've done for me.
thanks for being so gullible and believing in the $50 cake thing :DDD
thanks for being there for me during those ~~shitty~~ tuition lessons.
thanks for giving me bike rides and making me scream like a girly girl trying not to fall off.
thanks for living next block to me.
thanks for taking bus back home with me.
thanks for buying bubble tea with me.
thanks for creating memories that no one else ever could.
many many more !

<3 chenhuiting, jixiong, chenster, ahma.
all the best in life k, i'm here for you ! :D

happy birthday to my blog, its one year old ! (:
my first post was to chen hui ting man haha!
time flies..

2009-10-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

Dear Heavenly Father,

My heart was empty , burning , scarred.

Until You came along.
My heart is now filled with Your love.
Your love so great that You've sent your only son Jesus to die for us on the across.
Thank you for healing our bleeding hearts , understanding our thinking that we sometimes dont get it.
Thank you for bringing all the people in the world together, especially a group of people,
called " Friends. " , knowing that in times of need, they are there to help us.

Lord i just want to pray for all the friends on this world,
that in the time of examinations,
when they feel stressed, they can turn to you.
Lord let them know that You can leave their burdens for them and carry them for the rest of their lives.
Lord i want to pray for all the true friends i have in this world,
that whatever problems they are having now,
when they are tired, physically, mentally,
when they are helpless, confused and lost,
You can carry all their worries for them ,
let them know that when they feel so alone,
like there's no one else left in the world who understands their feelings and thoughts,
You do.
Lord, lead them out of the devil's way and keep them out of danger.

Lord i want to pray for :

olivia , that You will give her the wisdom to work harder ,
that she will pick herself up and be brave.
yijun , that You will give her the strength to carry on,
that she will get a well deserved rest, for longer road ahead.
isabel , that You will give her the immunity to heal,
that no matter how hard things hurt, she will stand strong.
donna , that You will give her [ and her country ] the will to recover,
that in this catastrophe You love will shine.
raelene , that You will keep her out of harm's way, that her leg stops hurting.

I PRAY ALL THIS IN JESUS MOST PRECIOUS NAME,
AMEN.

2009-09-30T03:06:00.000-07:00

okay i'm so bad i'm suppposed to be studying yet i'm blogging.
was digging up some email and decided to post some touching mails (:
enjoy.

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
And as in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say! 'I will call on Tim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him.'
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram sir,' 'Tim died today.'
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into theA 0 fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done ,
Do you lie in your bed ,
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die ?
Cause you never had time to call
and say,'Hi' ?

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere ,
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened? gift.... Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower .
Hear the music,
Before the song is over.

one of the coolest picture i've taken, just felt like sharing it with you peeps (:
the original photo was nice, but i edited it .
picnik rockkkkks.

2009-09-25T08:12:00.000-07:00

omg omg omg i so dont care anymore.
i have to blog about today..
woo. today was one the best days of my AHS life so far.
here's how it went!

woke up early in the morning, went to school.
EL paper 1. Hallelujah.
section one, had five questions, i read about like 2 of the questions.
did question 4. write about an unexpexted act of kindness, read and kinda remembered the storyline. was really thankful!!
section 2 was okay.. i guess :X

ate muffin , plate of rice and green tea during break .

chinese paper was sucky.
not gonna talk about it , dont let it ruin my mood or whatever.

after exams , stayed in class and did some art.
isabel can be a plastic surgeon!!
she did some amendments to the figure. LOL.
went down to eat with shujuan isabel and yani!
haha looked carefully at yani's forehead.
it had several oil factories there LOL.
got back up to class , where janelle and raelene was doing their art.
LOL they poured green tea into the class bin it was super disgusting LOL.
like. colourless blacky blacky. ewww. haha.
the green tea started leaking onto the class room floor LOL.
i didnt know what happened to it in the end.. sad.
yani and janelle left shortly D:
went down with isabel to ge some tape , but the bookshop was closed -.-
so we decided to walk a big round, making a trip to D&T wksp to go visit mr gey.
man i miss D&t ! teehee went to eat candy :D thanks mr gey !

went back to class, took my wallet and phone and rushed down hill.
-.- i forgot to take keys, so i went back up and take.
trained back to tamp.
took 22. I SAW CAMEL !!!
she was standing at the inter looking like a retarded :P
went to scare her from the back.
she was like O.O LOL.
super funny :D talked and bused home together!
so fated :D
changed and got some stuffs.
went back to school. bought milkshake on the way . ^^ i love milkshake.
lol shujuan bag-napped my bag and said that she wanted to use it to cover her butt. LMAO.
retarded ~~but damn cute~~
changed into another shirt cause my shirt was bit.. :X
haha.
the performance was ownage.
mr goh , rae, bel and yy performed !! (okay and alot of other ppl)
the class went " mr goh mr goh mr goh mr goh !"
super fun :D
couldnt really see rae and bel.
yy looked.
SERIOUS. LOL.
the performance had some really cool dances, funny talking.
it rocked yeah !

woo. night time.
after that was free time, ppl were allowed to go around the school.
ate some mooncakes :D thanks for feeding me shujuan !
haha. went around the whole school screaming like a mad woman together with isabel , yy , huixin & zhijia !
super fun :DDD
went "HUAT AHH." " GOOD GIRLS GONE BAD !" " HALLELUJAH"
it was the bomb man :D
sang song , skipped, run about together holding hands ans slinging shoulders !!
really let it all out and had fun!
everyone was super high!

played dare and double dare !! :D
super fun.
yani kissed the floor for 5 seconds.
shujuan went " HUAT AHH" to some strangers.
isabel and yy got saboed the most.
isabel had to say " I THINK YOURE DAMN HOT CAN I HAVE YOUR NO. ?"
yy had to sort of dance to a guy . yy had to PROPOSE to a guy . the guy agreed and a whole bunch of girls were singing the wedding march and skipping behind the guy. LMAO.
yy, NOT BAD EH ! :D i want be bridesmaid hor!
then the security chased us out of the stadium -.-
went to canteen got a drink and went to parade square to continue.
huixin and zhijia had to do spastic faces to the guides LOL.
i kenna -.-
i chosed DOUBLE DARE :D
which allows you to chose someone to do the dare with you :D
woo chose yy :P muahaha.
had to scream " WE MAKE EM GOOD GIRLS GONE BAD ! " and run across the netball court, where there were like so many seniors playing ball.
isabel got it in her phone! LOL shit .
she's gonna post it on faceboook T.T
hahaha. then just as we finished running, cai lao shi came and chased us away, threatening to zham us with ball ...
lingered awhile at sch gate.
yy huixin and zhijia left.
so me and isabel went down hill to inter, holdind hands and making new lyrics to the QianShou song :D LOL.
stayed at inter and talked for while.. dad came to pick us up, and sent isabel home.

TODAY TOTALLY ROCKED MANZXZXXXNXNZXNZ.
was super high. long time since i was so high and for real.
thanks people for all the fun (:

i have really moved on, gotten over it.
i am NOT going to be emo anymore.
i treasure the people that i know now.
i want to enjoy and make use of the time i have.
i see things in a different way.
i love my life now.
i'm grateful.

2009-09-15T03:07:00.000-07:00

okay.
did some changes to my blog.
exported my blog to somewhere else.
limited my blog posts to one post per day, and this will be the last post.
changed my monthly archives to no archives.

basically i'm shutting down this blog.
but i'll still be keeping the main web, with only the tagbox, links.
maybe i'll get back to blogging some day, so wanted to keep the links,
or you can use this as a interchange cause i know people get kinda sianded when you click on a link and it says " XXX.blogspot.com doesnt exist. ".
if you changed your blog url, tell me on the tagbox and i'll update it asap.
you can also chose to tag or whatever in the tagbox, i'll reply them (:

thats all.
goodbye blogger.
~~please dont ask me why , alright ?~~

2009-09-10T08:45:00.000-07:00

suddenly have the rush to play ball.
in the middle of the night.

woo.
i am back from malaysia.
yesterday midnight..

at KULAI, had to change bus.
left my phone on the bus that was travelling to KULAI.
got on the bus that was travelling to KELUANTAN, then realized i paisehed my phone.
told the tour guide, he managed to contact the driver and the driver managed to find it.
but the two buses were going opposite directions so i have to wait till sunday to get my phone back .

well it sucks but at least i'm getting it back.

training tomorrow = waking up early.
super tired, shall turn in early.
oh its midnight alr :X

2009-09-05T05:57:00.000-07:00

blogging in malaysia (:
cousin's comp.

so my sarcastic abilities are passed down :D
practically all my aunts and uncles are like 100 X times pro-er :DD

): seems like you chose to ignore it..
hai.

2009-09-03T08:43:00.000-07:00

为什么, 为什么, 我们会变成这样?
为什么, 为什么, 牵过的手却总是要放?

quoted from hillary.

going back msia,thurs then coming back.

love my results :DD

2009-09-01T06:22:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a superb day (:

- 10 of us were together.
- saw mrs chu.
- saw huang lao shi.
- saw lil kiddos running about.
- ate rice with soup plus egg
- played volleyball in that court !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- had macs - cam whored like we used to.
- hyper to the max.
okay this list goes on forever ..

man realized that time really does past so fast..
one year ago, i was studying really really hard for prelims and psle..
two years ago, i was enjoying my life with my class mates.. in two ponytails.
three years ago, i was about to know that my life was going to take the biggest turn.
just thinking back about past years makes me realise that life is truly unpredictable. everything around you can change in just a sec..

so.. TREASURE what you have every second of your life.

woo .
this movies rocks !
went to catch it with sijin today !
should check it out yeah !

after movies i loitered around tampines.. for an hour.
then went to meet xuan at tm.
saw yijun and freda there, joined them in long john's.
lol was kinda awkward.. :X
went home after that..

2009-08-29T08:24:00.000-07:00

okay i shall try to be happier and blog about happy things.
as in REAL happy things..

yesterday [friday]
math test postponed. YAY.
surivived trng. YAY. though got more stressed and scolded.
MEET UP WITH AVERYL. YAY!!!

trng ended late , but still went to 85 with chicken and esther.
took bus back to tanah merah inter and got home from there.
reached home at around 7 , bathed , packed my stuffs and headed off to meet averyl at around 7.40.
reached tm and meet up with her :DD
went around in T1..
wanted to eat carls jr at first but we nearly puked just by standing outside the door and looking at the menu on the wall. LOL, no offence, i cant take THAT much meat between two buns haha.
ended up eating MANBUKU , which is this really cool japanese gourmet thingy.
i ate Cream Omurice and averyl ate Ramen / maggi mee.
haha sat at the like very corner of the whole place, it was freaking nice (:
talked over dinner ..
paid our bills and left the place.. walked walked around T1.
decided to have FROZEN YOGHURT/ AKA FROLICK !
haha ate plain yoghurt with oreo crush and cereal ! haha.
the two kind and beautiful shop tenders charged us one topping instead of two ^^
haha thanks :DD
gave tipps LOL, then averyl took back a twenty cents coin that i put in their tip cup ! LOL.
eating eating eating...
suddenly got a couple walk to the counter, the guy was angmoh and the girl was chinese..
then i looked more carefully and realised the chinese girl was JOANNE PEH.
how cool was that! eating froxen yoghurt with discount and free viewing of idols!
kinda freaked out and i went like " OMG OMG AVERYL !! JOANNE PEH ! JOANNE PEH! "
averyl misheard it was " OMG OMG AVERYL !! JOANNE HENG , JOANNE HENG ! " and thought i was going nuts.
turned her head to make her SEE joanne PEH.
then she freaked out ! hahhahah cute camel :DDD
but they left, didnt came in and eat.
the shoptenders kinda freaked , people who walked past them kept staring. LOL.
poor joanne peh.
haha then finished eating we decided to go walk walk ..
went to cold storage and camel bought sushi !! hahah cute ! :D
then as we walk ..
we saw a BIG BIG CAMEL poster on the pole and decided to take photos with it haha :D
super super cute can ! :D
averyl was trying to feed sushi to it LOL.
then finished our sushi and went to the traffic light at tm..
bought bbt and hung out there to talk talk for while ..
haha went to cheers for play..
then my dad called and picked me and averyl up from there (:
haha sent averyl home.. again. probably for the sixth or seventh time XD
reached home around 11 plus, practised oral for while then went to crashed.
so the whole day, i spent less than an hour conscious at home.
so cool :DDD
yay missed you averyl ! <3 yahh.
hahaha.

I LOVE CAMELS !

today [ saturday ]

woke up at 6 -.-
stupid oral test..
shall not talk about unhappy or stressful things..
* skip skip *
after oral every one was freaking out in the canteen..
haha talked around and asked which examiner they got .
then went to the outside canteen there cam whore with ju hill fion and nat!
haha been long eh people!
after that hopped on to angela's truck and went to tamp inter..
reached there super early LOL.
went to mini toon , ayies and toy'r us!
super fun :DDD yay ! took pictures ! [ on fb ]
went home after that cause my mum keep scolding me over the phone.
rushed home , bathed and changed.
took mrt all the way from bedok to joo koon.
slept in the train..
@.@ [ <-- this emoticon is so cute muahah ]
reached some ulu factor with my parents..
slackedd whole day there, ate alottt.
yay saw my cousins! missed them !
haha woo today seems much more nicer after i dont think of sucky things !
haha okay woah i am opitmistic..

hahaha byebye ! off to sleep, super tired.

2009-08-29T07:32:00.000-07:00

today was a rather crappy day.
ftw.

2009-08-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

下課鐘聲回蕩耳邊　沉沒夕陽倒映我臉
互傳紙條的那畫面　消失斑斕光線
秋天氣息感染樹葉　泛黃照片還放桌前
操場上的那些麻雀　隨楓葉紛飛

我們曾經說好的幸福永遠　一直藏在書包的拉鏈
多麼希望回到那年　我們寫的詩篇

好想聽你說說愛我　好像聽你說說想我
這些年你有沒有　曾經想起過我
好像想你說說愛你　好想對你說說想你
這些年你知不知　我超想念著你　想念著你

秋天氣息感染樹葉　泛黃照片還放桌前
操場上的那些麻雀　隨楓葉紛飛

我們曾經說好的幸福永遠　一直藏在書包的拉鏈
多麼希望回到那年　我們寫的詩篇

好想聽你說說愛我　好想聽你說說想我
這些年你有沒有　曾經想起過我
好想對你說說愛你　好想對你說說想你
這些年你知不知　腦袋裏裝的全都是你　全都是你

訴說著我的感受　心裡話　全說出口

聽你說說多愛我　聽你說說想我
謝謝你曾經陪著我　說著我們幸福　的經過

ohh man, no worries i am not crazy over bang bang tang or whatever..
this is song is just so..

hmm trng , test, presentation tmr..
kinda dread trng..
havent revise for test yet.
still doing the presentation now..
hais.
wont be posting much nowadays..

yay meeting averyl tmr ! yay ^^

2009-08-25T02:29:00.000-07:00

5566- 存在

你說著我听著像海浪打著沙灘燒著
你的憂傷大于快樂連彩虹都只剩下一种顏色
我听著你說著像刀子划的隱隱痛著
就因為愛沒有規則所以心痛了死了回不去了

但是我存在著我一直存在著
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上貼著
愛會永遠永遠你說的
离開我的時候卻沒舍不得

我真的存在著我一直存在著
不管是瘋的气的我受著我緊緊手握著
傻傻陪著守著證明你值得
但我會笑著因為一切都值得

但是我存在著我一直存在著
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上貼著
愛會永遠永遠你說的
离開我的時候卻沒舍不得

我真的存在著我一直存在著
不管是瘋的气的我受著我緊緊手握著
傻傻的陪著守著證明你值得
但我會笑著因為一切都值得

我真的存在著我一直存在著
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上貼著
愛會永遠永遠你說的
离開我的時候卻沒舍不得

我真的存在著我一直存在著
不管是瘋的气的我受著我緊緊手握著
傻傻的陪著守著證明你值得
但我會笑著因為一切都值得

it freaking suits my mood nowadays..

2009-08-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

gone, gone, gone.
you're never coming back.
i miss you so much..

hmm okay. havent update for a long time..
went back malaysia for the week ends..
something interesting actually happened.
the town fishermen caught the ridiculously humongous tiger shark.
the whole town practically gathered at the beach area just to catch a glipse of that thing.
it was pretty cool..
but.
i would rather no one at all ever ever caught the shark..
it could have lived a longer , better life.
instead it got cut up and sold -.- ( 900 bucks , if you wanna know.)
it was raining at then, as if the heavens is grieving for the loss of that poor shark..

woo meeting averyl <3 up at fri for dinner !
excited!
ahh trng tmr..
contradicting feelings...

oh happt birthday clara boh !
hah you ~~bangla.~~ grow up !!
shh dont tell , you acting as the lil UP kid kinda cute !

damn it .
why must people hate each other ?
why cant people just love each other and accept them for who they are ?
why must people hate each other when they dont even understand each other ?
why cant people just accept other people for who they are , not what they play ?
why , why , why ?

damn it.
is our friendship really just gone like that ?

2009-08-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

" Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. "
1 Corinthians 15:58

2009-08-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

maybe if it let it go, it will fly higher.
without me.

hmm.
school was okay i guess.
gonna change place soon ?

after school went vernis class for while.
her friend pyone (?) was dressing up in for npcc.
hah then went to old stadium to meet xuan first ..
had a talk with her ..
then went for trng.

warm up then did some lay ups.
partnering after that.
went with amanda.
okay kinda nice she was teaching me what to do and what i did wrong ?
thanks (:
then did some defending.
had to go real low O:
tiring D:
did some shooting after that..
chicken was teaching me how to shoot .
yay i caught it ~
after trng ended went to t1 with vernis chicken and freda..
they ate but i didnt cause i was kinda full.
was freaking cold .
dad came to pick me up.

i fell asleep for an hour listening to above all..
it really calms and soothes me .. (:

hmm.
i wont give up just yet.
i'll just give it my last shot and hope for the best.
maybe i'll sink the ball right down that hoop, maybe it'll just bounce right off.
but no matter what , i knew i tried and i will be happy (:
and that i have not disappointed the people who hoped in me ..
i'll prove it to people that i didnt take it up just for fun .
yay.

its all gone with the wind isnt it? ~~these 3 years of friendship.~~

2009-08-11T03:04:00.000-07:00

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm.

okay i believe every hildan should know that two sentences..
just heard it on wenxuan ( not british ) blog ..

weekends..
went back malaysia to spent singapore national day there .
i'm malaysian anw, screw it.
didnt bring my english notes and there was a test on the day school start .
so dead.
fell down, freaky hole on my knee ._.
okay then on sunday, some china relative came and visit us.
speechless. he flew to singapore and took a car. wow.
okay, he is my ..
mother's mother's father's brother's son.
._. yeah.

oh btw,
happy 44 birthday singapore !
when the hell are you gonna reach menopause ?

school started today ! from the 3 day weekends break.
had a ton of hmwk uncompleted , test that i had yet studied for, mock assesment that had yet to be prepared.
rushed to study for english , and well, i am going to fail.
anyhow did some english, copied some chinese .

common test period.
sucked. hell. i. am. going. to. fail.
english.
wasnt that bad, ms teo didnt ever touched on the hmwk that i choinged -.-
music.
class was late. ( two minutes ) sorry mrs sng :\ did the MS today. passed ! wow, it was like freaking last minutes.
hist.
fun :DD ms fadhzila rockkkkzzxzxxz.
hcl !
:DDD lin lao shi didnt came today ! rae <3 came to sit infront of me !! woo. did some crappy hmwk.
sel !
i sang touch my hand -.- it was a punishment cause i was talking in the morning ._. huiting sang the first line of touch my hand and squated down and started dancing. cool.
packed bag and took 17 with shujuan.
damn it i cannot take that bus, i thought i could.
so i ended up going to pasir ris inter and taking 15 home ._.
bought a yakult on the way ^^

reached home and here i am ?

leg's not any better ):
hai. its coming back.
maybe tentimes worst , thats all , no big deal , i will be alright and jumping without and muscles cum bone pain , without having to hide the pain .
yeah of course , why not ?

hell yeah dont die of the sarcasm.

STILL BY HILLSONG.

hide me now,
under Your wings.
cover me,
within Your mighty hand.

when the oceans rise and thunders roar ,
i will soar with You above the storm.
Father You are the king above the flood,
i will be still and know You are God.

find rest my soul,
in Christ alone.
know His power,
in the quietness and trust.

2009-08-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

answers to all questions ,
questions , whose roots are .
BOREDOM.

okay, its in the middle of the night and i'm all alone online.
no one to msn, sms, fb.
so i ended up googling " shin injury "

interesting -very likely- results i've gotten.

SHIN SPLITS

its really freaking how my pain feels exactly the way they describe the symptoms .
read up if you're interested , i'm just bored.

gahh its really scary .
it keeps coming back .
though i am able to suppress the pain .. but what will the future hold i never know.
may tmr my leg willl drop off -.-

2009-08-06T08:44:00.000-07:00

i can do it .
i know i can .
i want to .
i believe i can and want to do it .

its not that faraway, i know it .

wooo.
okay shall blog abt these few days ..

[ wednesday .]

PE
got to know our 2.4 timing..
13mins plus .. A , but rather slow .. D:
played ball with vernis ..
both leggie hurts..hai.
FTI..
mr goh changed some seats..
raelene moved away .. to the other side of the classroom ))))))))):
i am so going to miss her ..
aint no one there to comfort / humour / me .. D:
*** moved away though .. yay .
wenxuan sits beside me now..
hah that retarded girl .
um smth happened after school ..
but didnt stayed back to help till it was over.

cab to clementi sports hall with yijun and vernis.
rae ,xuan , steph and mongkali (?) took another cab ..
stupid phone keep lagging along the way ._.
after reaching went to get some lunch ..
got back and the match alr started.
AHS won RGS woo ~
congrats ! great play !
then went to mrt station with the nball then waited for vernis to come .
while waiting went toilet .. it was freaking dirty and smelly .. :X
took mrt back to tamp , sat on the mrt floor with vernis cause there were no more seats .. ?
hah reached tamp bought ice cream and went home..

[ thursday / today ]

woo.
chinese was super boring ..
got back test results ..
another disappointment ))):
math was okay ..
woei ling's dice were cute !
eng was okay ?
kinda tired ..
hist was fun (:
got back results , were really happy ^^ though i lost shujuan ._.
science was .. normal ..
mr goh talked abt sexual reproduction.. ew ..
* cant help but be childish *

after school..
TRAINING WOO !
really happy with myself today (:
tried harder and suceeded ^^
really happy with myself today (: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
finally can do the finger roll thingy.
did 1-1 ? fun and learn-able (:
defended eileen and she defended me back , fun !
got the hesitate thingy , then have to hop or small jump with left leg ..
lil messed up and coach kept like nagging at me .. :P
vernis told him my left leg was injured so lil difficult for me ?
grr , its only lil painful .
then coach ask me stretch more next time .. okay ?
choing stairs again ..
jing jing fell down * ouchies *
poor thing D:
then after dismissal play ball with vernis for while ,
tried the finger roll thingy !!
finally managed to do it :D
yay really happy .
after that went to visit the netballers / xuan .. to see how her leg..
was practically cursing half the time there ..
argh. take care k yixuan..
vernis mom / whole family came to fetch her ..
waved good bye and walked downhill..
went to tamp inter to get ice cream and bused home..

i'm really happy with myself today :DDDDDDDDDD
getting my "feel" on the ball back. ^^
yay. happy.

aww today my dearest camel was so upset ..
tried to cheer her up ..
JIAYOU AVERLY ILY NO MATTER WHAT .

hah bye !
love yah !

maybe .. its possible , i gotta do my best .
just hoping for the best next year (((((((:

2009-08-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

lost sight,
couldnt see .

gaah 2.4 run today..

woke up , went to tamp inter with huiting ..
meet up with the rest , yani , siying , huiwen , yingxin , clara , angela .
took angela' truck to east coast park .
was lil late but it was fun along the way :DD
then the run started with the sec 2 boys..
freaking fast ..
basketballer first :D
sec two girls next ..
fast .. netballer and basketballer side by side ..
till last part basketballer first ^^ congrats Jeanette ~
sec one boys ..
fast ? our class the first was qianyu , 25 in level ! grats !
last was sec one girls.. us .
starting ran with vernis ..
vernis was following yijun , but i couldnt see yijun so i followed vernis .
keep jogging jogging ..
around the last two stations vernis keep having stitches , yijun leg pain )):
haha then keep pushing vernis .. but she couldnt take it .. ):
after like jogging after vernis stopped for while ..
then last station choing .. like mad .. :X
around the last like 20 or 30 metres away from the finishing line ,
saw ALOT of people there ..
the whole team was there, screaming away !
heard my name :DDD
then keep choinging .
reach hei shen then i slowed down ..
then got one girl go over take me when i slowed down !!!
argh. -.-
then took the card from thong kia .
82 ...
argh ..
lil dissapointed ..
could have done better .
like i only used the energy in the last choinging part ..
hai.
and i kinda pangseh vernis and yijun..
sorry ..

BUT .
BUT.
i survived 2.4 !!! yay !
after the run everyone was like celebrating , hugging . LOL.

after that had class outing ..
long day .. yy joined in ^^
half the class pangseh the other half go eat .. wth ..
then the other half (including me) went to catch up with them ..
ate hot cakes . bfh was spamming butter ?
ha then went to rent bike and cycle around !
funn but tiring !
funny stuffs happened along the way !
then the time for the bikes was up ..
returned our bikes, lingered here and there for while before leaving ..
took 16 with shujuan isabel yy yani and bzy ..
then got off a bus stop and bzy took 10 back .
the rest of us took 12 to white sands , ehub .
netballers went off so left me ans shujuan ..
went to white sands mall to get my books ^^
plain truth and nineteen minutes ^^
after that took 3 ..
fell asleep and went off the wrong stop ... zZz
then take to tamp inter and took 293 ..
was freaking tired ..
yay.
nice tiring day .

bye.

MY DEAREST JAN <3

2009-08-02T03:14:00.001-07:00

to my jan dearest ..

"HELLO !
I'm Jan Gohhhhh and I'm proud to be kicking and alive at the age of thirteeeeeen !
But I get more mature and less childish at on 18 January whereby I celebrate Jan day.
Volleyball is the game I play in Cedar, whereby girls go despo for boys unlike where I used to be at St.Hildas.
I have this really strong addiction for Starbucks and anything concerning mocha,
oh and visual kei too :D
I'm not much of a pessimist, which is why I se myself as someone famous in the future :B
But it's okay, you can start sending in your fanmails at
doubletrouble_96@hotmail.com
I have Plurk, Live Journal and Facebook too, go find it yourself :D
But my friendster dieded a long time ago !

YAYYE I GET HYPER TYPING ON JOANNE'S BLOG TOO ! :D "

HAHAHA THAT WAS THE SELF INTRO DONE BY MY DEAREST JAN GOH JIA HUI !!! :D

woo.
jan i missed you so much .
how have life been lately ?
is volleyball fun ?
how are your teammates and coach ?
is your leg okay ?
did you missed me ?

its almost been two years girl .
i will always remember you ..
the first ever volleyballer in shps i had met in saint hilda's ..
sitting beside you for one or two terms (?) had been a very fun experience ..
we would sing , talk and crap about in class .
esp avril lavigne songs like when you're gone , girlfriend.
and i still remember the first song that we sang together was with you, by chris brown .
you wrote the lyrics on a notebook and we were both singing to it ..
you were able to touch your nose with your tougue, i remembered.
i took a photo of it and saved it and used it as my screensaver , for a day .
you were so cute !
we would team up and play volleyball during pe , after school blah blah .
i was really enjoying myself ..
once, after school , we were at the main gate waiting for your mother to pick you up ,
and we were happily taking pictures ..
you smiled at my phone and i snapped it ..
you were freaking out cause your eye bags in that photo were really heavy ..
but i didnt delete it , you looked so cute !
the first sleepover at your place was also the most memorable memories of my life ..
i remembered cutting the cake at on your place , singing birthday song , eating it ..
then using your comp ..
hah bunking with you and your riduculously big soft toy dog , who was unfortunately named KAI.
you are the most blind fangirl ever .
and kudos to you .
despite the constant insults from the rest of us about your gazette, you still love them .
and that's dedication .
bbq this year was fun !
played volleyball with you again !
together with averyl..
and i'm really proud of you my dear .
you've taken up volleyball , and lived my dreams for me ..
ILY .

you are a really special friend,
and i miss you so much ..

you are the most cheerful , light-hearted , innocent , awesome , neat , kind , dedicated , strong-willed , loyal etc etc girl.

i love you jan !
and i really wish you the very best in life , in studies , in relationship and importantly , volleyball .
realize your dreams and be 1000000000000000 % sure that i , joanne heng, will always be here for you , cheering you on .
you are really fortunate , to have volleyball in your life , work towards it and you shall be successful and realize your dream .
dont be discourage when you fall , but be brave when you stand up .
i am always here when you need me .

miss you loads..
LOVE YOU DEAR !
volleyballers forever & ever & ever & ever ..

♥

2009-08-02T02:34:00.000-07:00

BOOKS.
wow i cant get my hands off them !

twilightnewmooneclipsebreakingdawn.
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AWESOME-NESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

stephanie meyer rocks man .
waiting to midnight sun yay !

JODI PICOULT OMG.

finished my sister's keeper and perfect match this year.
man they are like the best family related novels i have EVER read .

twilightnewmooneclipsebreakingdawn.
perfectmatchmysisterskeeper.

GAHH.

C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905 C905

i am gonna chant this untill a C905 black model with 8 gb mem card appears infront of me. for me.

2009-08-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

[ ]

AVERYL LIM ZHI HUI .

gahh.
i've known you for about two years !
spent so much time with you , but it never seems enough !
every single moment spent with you , i can forget about the world and all the crappy problems along with it ..
every single stay - back - after - school - to - play - volleyball - anyhowly , i can laugh till i cry ..
every single lets - go - bbt - after - remedial [ with CHT ] , i can talk till i forget about the time ..
every single time going out to walk walk , watch movie , crapping , is true ..
with you around , i can forget any other things .
with you around , i can have the strength to stand up .
with you around , i can just fall to my knees and cry shamelessy , knowing that you'll be rubbing my shoulder telling and letting me believe everything will be alright .
with you around , i can be the happiest girl on earth without any needs of pretending or faking .
you make me happy (: truly happy .
you make me smile (: without worrying .
you make me laugh (: never sad .
you make me me (: the real me .
there wont be a moment of silence with you when we have the whole wide world to talk about !!!
there wont be a shitty complicated problem when we're there fo each other !!!

I MISS YOU AVERYL !!!
i really wish you the best in everything you do !
especially volleyball !
haa you better think of me when you play okay !!
love you always !
here for you !

♥

haha special post today , as you can see (:

shall post about my day !!

woke up at 1 plus ,
parent went tm while me and my brother stayed at home .
washed my home econs towel and apron , ate breakfast / lunch , bathe , watch tv ,
till it was around 4.
decided to call averyl up and meet her :DDDDDD
then went to cht's house and look up up.
went to clearwaters together , she rode me there / i nearly died .
shujuan and yani was alr there .
then averyl came !!
intorduced her to the rest :D
huiwen and siying came ,
then we went to bedok reservior !
averyl couldnt run so i walked with her .
the rest jogged all the way ..
woah . LOL. talked alot .
made fun of a squashed lizard , weird china man , old bolding guys with fbt and a couple ..
haha and lot luh :D
haha then caught up with the rest and we walked back to the starting together :D
hah bought milo . borrowed money from camel cause i dropped my coins -.-
haha then walked back to clearwater with averyl , while the rest went to aquarius .
parents came to fetch me to dinner , waved good bye to my dear camel .
hah had fun ! :D

then went dinner with my parent ..
sat alone. with a ahma.
she started talking to me ??
lol cute man.
then went to carrefour .
DAMN IT SONY COMPANY WAS HAVING A ROADSHOW.
AND ALL THE NEW PHONES WERE ON SALE or smth,
ARHHHHHHH.
C905 was 789 , with a printer , 8 gb mem , headset .
and my dad was like keep hestitating ..
haha then in the end didnt got it luh.. like duh .
argh/
then went home after that.
freaking tired.

haha, GREAT DAY !!
:D MISS YOU AVERYL !!!
take care hor !
i want to hear your camelly laughter !!

2009-07-31T08:48:00.000-07:00

[ edited ]

how time flies past my eyes .

i am so totally dead . brain dead .
every day is a brand new day ,
yesterday is forever ago .
gahh .

chinese ..
wrote zuo wen about my dearest <3
maths ..
didnt do hmwk :X
history !
fun :D ms fadhzila roccccccks.
eng !
didnt do hmwk but was okay ((:
sci ..
last lesson with ms huda ..

after school ..
went out with some people ..
had my freaking mood up in the sky and down back to hell .
haiz. sorry if i dragged anyone's mood down ..
but still i had fun (:

haiz.
why cant everyone just live without any prejudice and hatred .
for me ?
maybe i'm not worthy .

hmm sorted my feelings out ..
i'm moving on .
have found things and people that are worth it .
but moving on doesnt mean forgetting ,
i'll just be contented with whatever i have now .
i'm gonna be happier (:
thanks loves.

[ that was yesterday's post ! ]

yay .
slept till 1 plus today ((:
feeling super great !
leg's not pain !
yay !
going jogging later !
maybe i'll just be lazy and not jog ..

haha okay done blogging (:
bye !

2009-07-30T06:55:00.000-07:00

the eclipse always outshines the sun .
always.

grr. not in good mood now.
but shall blog abt my day .

chinese was lil boring ,
but listening to other people's decriptive paragraphs really funny (:
science ..
elements really not my stuff.
english ..
copied some notes .. personal recount blah blah ..
history !
funnnnnnnnnnnn. ms fadhzila is so lovedddd <3
math ..
mrs yang was pissed at the end ... :X

went 85 to eat after school ..
alot of ppl went woots !
choing back to school in time to make it for trng ..

trng ..
hmm .
quite okay haaha.
getting the feel back ~
haha went 85 again with chicken after trng.
honey green tea <3
hah then walk back to t m station and bused to tm .
went to get ms huda's board !
pink !
hah then father come fetch!
quite tired ..

grr.
stupid hand.
keep bloody shaking.
esp when i'm upset .
grr.

wth .
the line is drawn .
so there is a line between .. n and b ..
if thats what you want ..
then thats what i'll give you .
silence .

wth ..

2009-07-28T08:02:00.000-07:00

where does your heart lives when its home never existed.

woots long time never post le .

monday !
pe napfa !
sit and reach woots.
art .
got seriously pissed by mdm zee.
homeecon .
burnt my pancakes -.-
maths .
test . ew .
pretty screwed day .

tuesday !
grr. common test .
hist was okay ..
english !
watch movie - the marshall <3
music ! forgot to bring file but yy saved me ! thanks yo !
hist ! haha fun as always !
chinese D; test. didnt finished the paper . grr.

after school ! was around the concourse .
chasing people after my shoe bag !
haha then went for trng . back hurt a lil . leg hurt lot.

hah okay done for the day !
bye !

home just doesnt feel like home.
no, not anymore.
it never felt like.
i seriously hate this shit hole that i go back to everyday after school .
school feels like home , friends feel like family.
" why ? " you asked.
" cause in your eyes only they exist, i am just a worthless piece of shit that you would rather do without . cause i'm expected to be perfect . cause whatever i do will not and has not been seen by you . cause i'm really sick of this shit hole. cause you dont understand . " is my answer .

i really really hate this shit hole , and i'm done with putting up with it .
after my studies , i am going to the other side of the earth , just not to see you .
ever. again .
i hate you .
and i mean it .

2009-07-24T04:59:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to see the light.

school was fun today (:
hahs some highlights.

mount huiting erupted.
huiting went home with a black nose.
school scams people of their money by making them to donate money if they never bring thermometer.
me and raelene heard melodic voice during lessons. hah !
gave rae smth <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Candles

The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Could't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face

Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

haiz...
why.. why does it seems that the past , the fun we used to have, we endless talk we used to have, is gone , with the wind. never coming back again. Whenever i read all you guys de blog archive , see all the picutures we took , i can only miss the past , eyes swelling up with tears and do nothing about it ? randomly calling you guys up might seem weird , and and.. even if i do.. it might not be the same anymore. never the same. anymore. i miss you guys. i really do.

goodbye.
to you guys.

2009-07-22T02:14:00.000-07:00

thousand colours lighting up the sky.
my sky .

morning...
got to school abt after 5 or 10 min started raining..
people came in later were like soaked. LOL.
janelle was like drenched LOL.
hmm. malay was .. boring.
wrote my notes wrongly -.-
pe.. napfa.
standing board jump. was cheering till voice changed abit.
maths..
mrs yang didnt came and the relief teacher made NO sense.
eng .
watched the movie thing..
science ..
damn it i havent revise and i dont understand a single shit -.-

early release ..
shujuan went berserk abt the tables -.-
in the end her effort wasted, poor thing.
went off to macs at white sands with shujuan and netballers !
haha fun (:
ate mac wings woots !
then bused home with yani !
haha that pigg.

grr having tuition later !
kinda hate the place.. freaking noisy.

training tmr..
haiz dont know whether to look forward or what..

i cant breathe.
no, i really cant.

haiz. ))):
no mood now.
argh. guess life's like this.
screw it.

random song.
was thinking about it all of a sudden.
sang this song in k box with the girls <3

My Heart Will Go On lyrics

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

2009-07-20T23:27:00.000-07:00

What would you do if you knew.

monday !
had napfa sit up !
32 :X its been like forever since i did sit up man..
art ..
bleh that zombie.
home ec !
macoroni <3 ! kept sneezing .
math !
got back results !!! super happy :D

after school went to t1 with yixuan and yijun !
haha bought my knee guard ((:
some netballers joined in later haha.
went to secret recipe but i didnt eat..
after that some had to leave ,
so left me yijun raelene and yy !
me and yy decided to go raelene's place .
yijun went back cause her house was like 4 blocks away ?
haha used comp at rae's for while then ..
yay she went to bath !!
haha i'm so happy cause she will let down her hair after bathing and will get to see it !
muahaha raelene looked really chio ! :DD
haha then went back home, the bus took forever to come !

went back home, lil tired but choinged abit of hmwk.
then revise for while and watch tv :DD
went to sleep soon after..

tuesday ! today !

woke up feeling like shitzxxzxzxzxxz.
arrrgh. common test.
hope i make it ..
eng !
haha spring lab was nice !
music!
fun but lil quiet today..
recess !!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahahahaha. super funny.
bought green tea and started crossing arms and drinking .
was crossing arms with siying brother , and i didnt spit :D
haha then angela joined in and i practically spit half of the green tea in my mouth,
then started bursting out into laughter ! hhahahahha
poor angela ! :D
haha history !
funnnnnn ! was supposed to take temp but ms fadsila forgotton.
chinese T.T
took temperature ..
37.7 !!! argh ...
lin lao shi sort of freaked out and ask me pack my stuffs ..
went G.O. then scan the head thingy and it said 36.5 .. -.-
then lin lao shi insisted that i go home so i took bus back alone ...
damn it lols i missed training grr.

reached home, ate lunch , went to the doc's.
today and tmr mc, but i wanna go school leh.. !
miss my PIG FAMILY <3
hahah okay that was about my two days !
BYEEEEEE.

shit you luh dog.
if you're reading this means you're not the dog i'm talking about.

2009-07-17T03:23:00.000-07:00

are you there anymore ?

went back msia..
not quite good ):
somethings happened..
then wasnt in good mood..
listened to songs when having supper , nearly broke down..
had a really really bad dream after crying myself to sleep .. ):
this weekend sucked.

You Are Not Alone lyrics
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

2009-07-14T07:55:00.000-07:00

every breathe its harder to believe..

okay had been really busy past few days,
so didnt have any time to post.
shall update..

monday ,
was not a day that i hoped it would be..
pe.. sian. knee hurt when doing warm up -.-
art. grr retaaarded teacher. stupid 3 layers of eyelids..
home ec! lol was looking forward to this but yeah, dissapointment. D&T is still better..
math.. haiz i dreaded this math lesson man. came back from the kitchen with my soup and then shujuan went like " hey look how much you got for the test ! its on your table. "
damnflang i failed again. wtf man. dont care anymore.
lost my artwork on the way home. whatever man i dont care abt that stupid 3 layers anymore.

tuesday..
CA..
studied like hell for it , worth it (:
Eng..
haha ms teo played some people's audio recording... teehee.
Music !
haha i actually love this lesson, fun man :D mrs sng rocckz.
Hist !
flew past ! Ms Fadsila is sooo coool man :D she makes history fun !
HCL ..
haha was supposed to have ting xie, but postsponed.. due to some people.. muahaha.
SEL.
mr goh told us jokes LOL.

had been busy stuying for test nowsaday..
everyday.. go home, tired, sleep, study, sleep ._.
haiz.napfa round the bloody corner..
i dont want to fail )):

help me please. please. i dont know what to do.

whatthehell...begoneplease,you'refreakingannoying.icantstandyou.icantevenfocusinclasswhenyouactupagain.
icantevenreviseorwhatever.seriously,getoutofmylife,withyouaroundicantdothingsthaticould,usedto.

2009-07-11T09:16:00.000-07:00

black and white can be emo..
but it can also be of nice scenery ..

okay went to see doctor on friday (:
he put the suck suck thingy and then like pull my leg and waist.. like siao.
i heard like wth many " CLARK " .
and i keep covering my face, dont dare to look :X
the doc say if my injury gets worse there would be like a part of my knee that will pop out and never can be put back.. scary LOL.
one week mc, no pe or whatever (:

sat.. hai bored.
finished new moon.
lemme eclipse , yijun ! :D
went out for dinner and leg hurt a lil..

feeling better.. i guess.

maybe if i pretend hard enough, the happiness will feel real ..

2009-07-08T08:57:00.000-07:00

YAY.
mum just came in the door and i was like

" mum tmr i go see doc can ? "
" but you havent play ball then pain leh "
" exactly thats why i wanna see doc. "
* stares *
" okay fine tmr come back school earlier ."
" huh but i go see with my friend can ? "
" why must see with your friend ? downstairs de can le ."
" okay . "

[in chinese , duh.]

yay.

2009-07-08T05:59:00.000-07:00

the road is going nowhere.

haiz.

slept all the way to school.
lol but wasnt really that tired.
malay was... ._. sian.
didnt pay attention .
pe . took height and weight.
retaaarded, i grew by 0.5 cm -.-
math, got to see mrs yang.
oh dang havent do her hmwk yet.
eng was.. okay
nice presentation done by cheryl and fang yun !
double science was okay ^^
mr goh went through the notes. haha i'm geekish.

took bus with shujuan julia fiona and natasha.
went off to east point. poor shujuan, dont want come LOL.
ate kfc ((: had a shrooms burger.
saw a friend that i havent seen in a million years.. omg.
then bused home with julia.
hah bye ~

there's nth i can do.
stay strong , r and x.

i cant stand this anymore.
how long more do i have to pretend that my leg does not hurt.
how long more do i have to pretend that i'm really that excited when i hear his name.
how long more do i have to pretend that i dont really care if they dont ..
how long more ?
tell me please, cause i cant stand this anymore.
why me ? why ? why them ? why , when i finally found something that i could actually compare with volleyball ? why ? its just so unfair. why do i have to bear the unbearable pain for like 2 hours plus when i go down to have dinner for like 40 min. damn it. i hate this. i cant take this anymore. i hate the stupid injury. its spreading. whatthehelldoidoifitsmorethanjustasportsinjury? whatdoido ?

2009-07-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

i dont wanna believe anymore.

haha school re-open !
was looking forward though :D
wanna be back in school !

okay first period is CA.
retarded. everyone choing last min haha
i think more than half of the class gonna flunk lol.
second was english !
first time i like eng sia.
ms teo was changed and became our class de teacher.
music was after that ^^
haha the teacher , mrs sng took us to the music room .
introduction blahblah . shes really cool ! really fun to play with haha (:
recess ! ate the usual cai fan, talked to vernis who was like sitting on the table beside for while :D
haha after that was history !
lil teacher was real fun !
self intro blahblah. she says " Hitler has 1 one ball ." ._.
chinese was ...
bleh. dont like the hmwk given the whole hol D:
retarded luh.
after that was SEL.
slept through half of it.
hey it was raining and the curtains were closed and lights were off.. tee hee.
walked to bus stop with shujuan and yingxin and huiting
bused home with huiting (:
bye.

dont like today. took painkillers. ):
tried so hard to bear the pain, but i didnt know why..
i just took it out and swallowed one.
all my retarded pain bearing effort the pass 3 weeks gone to waste ):
hate myself ):
threw my pills away le.
pills meet bin today (:

why must i be in pain. how would you like to try walking down from the 3 floor to the 2 floor and have your leg practically killing throughout like 2 periods in school. in school, where no matter what retarded way your bloody leg is relasping, you cant show it, you cant limp, you cant depend on another leg, you cant cry, you cant break down, you cant feel anything elso but the pain. so how , how you would like to try that .. ? its getting worse. i can feel it.but you cant.
i'm never ever gonna believe again. i'm never gonna hope again. i give up.

2009-07-06T04:56:00.000-07:00

shit .

chi bk review havent do.
havent study for tmr chi test.

die laaa.

2009-07-06T03:24:00.000-07:00

No boundaries

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up everything
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries

coldness kills. cant believe you murdered her.

2009-07-05T19:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday...

choing hmwk.
got my stuffs ready and went to shps to meet yuwen..
man its been like forever since we went out . yay ^^
train to pasir ris, was raining so we went white sands mall.
buwek had her burger and waffle.lol.
went park to jog jog for while ..
then poor yuwen had stitches .
so we stopped.
went to the shore and walked 4 times.. hahaha
of course got talk luh.
had a really long talk with her...
then i was hungry , so we went to have dinner tgt..
merissa suddenly sms me and told me she saw me. LOL.
but i wasnt at the place she thought i was. lol.
saw her sis though..
then went arcade for while.
dad came to pick me up afterwards..

at night...
raelene yani added 6 on face book and he accepted.
but i couldnt go online... argh ...
talked to raelene on the phone till my phone nearly no batt..
lols.

(: glad i went out yesterday..
um. all the best between you and B's friendship.

some times when the first step is alr taken and the other person doesnt continue to take another step... its just not worth it.

2009-07-04T06:22:00.000-07:00

okay i finally have time ..

went to school today to watch the semi and finals..
philippines lost two matches today..
6 was real sad ):
haha after that went to east point with huiwen, raelene , yani & huiwens..woots woots ~
um then went kfc. didnt have money so i didnt ate. yixuan joined us there.
went arcade. played basketball, daytona.
then took mrt with huiwen raelene & yixuan.. bused home with raelene.

Philippines #6 Jerome Alvin Teng's most crazy screaming fan..
bye. ):

leg was full of shit after running up the hill to school from the bus-stop.
i wanted the pain, just to make sure i'm still alive, to make sure that i existed.
cause you dont treat me that way.

2009-07-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY OF WATCHING AYG IN SCHOOL ALMOST EVERYDAY OF THIS WEEK. * faints weakly *

muahaha.
lets start with the morning ((:
alarm rang, snoozed it.
huiwen called, and woke up .
rushed off to meet her at her condo,
her mum sent us to school.
then the FIRST great thing that happened..

THE WHOLE PHILIPPINES TEAM WERE AT THE DOOR OF ISH TAKING PHOTOS WITH PEOPLE !!!
THEY WERE LIKE... THERE !!! LIKE OMG CLOSE.

okay second..

I WAS ABOUT TO ENTER ISH.. AND #6 WAS LIKE A ARM'S LENGTH AWAY FROM ME !!!
AND HE WAS LIKE SMILING LIKE OMG.

okay lol..

the philippines were against the jordans & SRI LANKA
THEY WON JORDONS (match sticks) !!! 35 - 31
OF COURSE, ITS THE PHILIPPINES <3.>
okay then we went back to ahs.
didnt pay attention to the matches - it wasnt phillippines-
clara opened a bag of lollipop and me clara and yani were eating..
some volunteer chased us out .. like we expected . LOL.
lol clara had BLUE tounge while i had DARK PURPLE .
yani's lollipop was too close to mouth colour, didnt really stand out . LOL.
hahaha then we went canteen since we were chased out.
clara treated me green tea ! thanks !
hahaha then we went back.
they told us it was break time -.-
wanted to go out cause it was hot but some people didnt wanted to yeah..
okay waited for the philippines match with jodons...

THEY WON !!! WOOTS.
this match was damn excited..
the both teams were ONE shot away from 33.
phi 32 jor 31
then #7 Jeoffrey Javollonar shot a three point and they won ^^
YAY !!!
PHILIPPINES !!!!!!!!!!!!!
spammed my phone with their match photos ^^

okay after that watched some matches.
i forgot.
hey dont blame me for forgetting luh i am seriously lacking of sleep.
lols okay then after the girls match,
went out of ish..
to canteen.
on our way back..
the THIRD great thing happened.

PHILLIPPINE TEAM WERE OUTSIDE THE GENERAL OFFICE !!!

THE COACH WALKED PAST ME

I HAD THE COURAGE TO CONVERSE WITH THE COACH

" Um excuse me , can we take photos ? "

" of the players "

"yeah "

" sure go ahead "

THEN THE COACH STARTED TO ASK WHAT YEAR ARE WE, ARE WE FROM AHS.

THEN HE COACH STARTED INTRODUCING THE PLAYERS !!!

I WAS LIKE " OMG I AM SO GONNA FAINT ANY SECOND "

THEN 6 STOOD BESIDE ME WHEN TAKING THE PHOTO !!!

THE PHILLIPPINE TEAM HAD A PHOTO ALSO !!!

ONE CAM WAS HUIWEN'S PHONE,
THE OTHER WAS THEIRS OMG !!!!

THEN WE SAID THANK YOU AND LEFT..

ME AND YANI WERE LIKE SQUEALING!!!

OMG LUH !!! I TOOK PHOTO WITH THE PHILLIPPINE TEAM !!!

then started calling people and telling them:DD

haha then on went mrt.
accompanied huiwen to damai to meet raelene..
took 22 home..

FREAKING HAPPY!!! YAY !!!

hahaha omg luh i going siao over #6.
what i wanted came true ^^

tmr gonna go see doc with yixuan.. hope raelene can come ((:
thanks you two.. (:

2009-07-02T01:40:00.000-07:00

Trying to reach out to you,
Touch my hand.
Reach out as far as you can.

OHMYGOSH.
I'M TOTALLY ADDICTED TO DAVID ARCHULETA'S

TOUCH MY HAND !!!

today was a pleasant day.
got out of the house bit late,
took 31 to school.
meet up with huiwen and clara
then we went in ISH.
great seats :D
esp for shujuan (muahaha)
shujuan was late, she overslept -.-
isabel and yani joined later !

matches results :D

BOYS
KOREAN (!!!) kicked Qatar's ass hell yeah. 33-15 .
the match rocked. the korean rocked. freaking good players :D
UAE thrashed Bangladesh. sorry singqiang :X 33-6
wasnt really paying attention but bangladesh wasnt really that good..
Uzbekistan lost to Singapore , boo :X 9-34
#5 did great, wenxuan :D
Phillippines won Japan !!!!!!!!!!!! 34-26
#6 ROCCCCCEK OMG. Freaking cool and shuai omg.

GIRLS
Japan freaking thrashed Nepal . 34-0
wasnt really looking, but the nepal girls shoot bit ... weird.
Thailand girls won Jordan :D 34-18
yayness, the thai was great.. there was a left hander shooter, she rocked.

something random : MY KNUCKLE ARE FREAKING OVERSIZED.

today's games were really nice :D here's the PHIPPINES MATCH

i gave up loading the vid -.-

[SUPER CLOSE UP !!! OMG LUH !!! ]

PHILIPPINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS is loved !

heys ...
i dont know whats happening between us.
its like.. we're drifting apart...
though we only get to know each other this year...
but all i want you to know is that you really mean alot to me..
whatever happens i'll be here..
thanks for everthing you've done.
sorry for everything i put you through.
andofcourseforthisfriendshiptolast..ifyouwantto..

goodbye my friend ,
its hard to die.
when all the birds are singing in the sky,
Now that the spring is in the air.

2009-07-01T02:04:00.000-07:00

BASKETBALL .

woke up, rushed to school.
saw olivia, went up to the gathering class together.
took temperature and more people came.
went to ish, sat beside janelle and clara.
watched the incredibly rocking matches :D

Sri Lanka owned Nepal godlike.
CHINA PWNED SINGAPORE"S ASS LIKE TOTALLY.
Philippines prove their hardwork by defeating the Iran.
Thailand won United Arab Emirate (UAE)!
Jordan disappointed their crowd of supportors by losing the match to Japan.
[ADDED ON CAUSE WENXUAN WANTS TO SEE]
Uzbekistan (UZB) won India !

those were the matches i watched today :D

wenxuan was going crazy over Uzbekistan's #5
half of the team had weird hair style.

my FAVOURITE is the Philippines match.
#06 is shuai omg !
he played super well !
THEY WON BY 1 POINT !!!
THEY PIAH LIKE HELL OMG !!!

my most expected results is the china match.
CHINA PWNED SINGAPORE"S ASS LIKE TOTALLY.
there was an edward cullen in china's team surname ZHANG.
except alot taller. grr creepy.

lol was sitting at the place and keep overhearing some retarded conversations
(and a bloody accent that i had to stand for the whole time i was there. [ but i did stand it])
which included

" eh singapore so haolian ah? wear t-shirt play ?! no jerseys leh ! "
" eh singapore damn zai is it ? every team also in ISH training le they still havent come in ? damn zai is it ?! "
" waolao ! anglican high team go and play also will win lah ! "

to that retarded bastard who said those :
to no1 :
What the heck ? Come on, ever heard of advertisement ? the singapore team wore a shirt with the converse logo on it , to advertise. Converse sponsored the team with shoes, jerseys and maybe even socks, which of course comes with the tiao jian that they have to wear the shirt on for the pre-match training. dont act and accuse them if you dont know a single thing . they had a jersey underneath their shirt, oh please.
to no2 :
eh look properly luh. your school have 2 indoor courts leh. they singapore team were training in the old stadium cause sharing half a court for 2 teams isnt really spacious. damn it sia. the singapore team work so hard then accused by people like you, its really unfair loh .
to no3 :
excuse me, 3on3 basketball is a hell lot of difference with the normal 5on5 basketball that anglican high school team plays. please go and educate yourself somemore and stop critising that team. the crowd is different, the opponents are heck lot diff, it isnt that easy, what if the anglican high players go down and play , and did a job under your over amibitious expectations ?

hahahahahah feel much more better after blogging this out :D
yeah i maybe angry but i'll get over it in matter of sec after blogging :D

went to have lunch at tm macs with shujuan, huiwen and clara!

then bused home.
E LEARNING SUCKS

today i googled my full name.first link - credulously-believing.blogspot.com second link - my jyps best friend blog link .wow.

the end .

I HAD A SUPER GREAT TIME WATCHING SUPER STRONG TEAMS PLAY OMG !!!

haiz it hurt even to watch basketball games.

2009-06-28T17:47:00.000-07:00

oh and this past week in malaysia reminded of my primary school times..
junyuan primary, actually.

i can still remember when i was a lil kiddo, p1 , p2, p3 ,p4.
school was fun everyday.

assembly every monday when i p1 and p3 was my favourite,
cause it was singing sessions.
mr kenneth will take a guitar and bring a whole crowd in life.
and i especially remembered the songs that were sang.

seasons in the sun.

top of the world.

much more that i forgot..
so much memories.
haiz.

missing you guys .. badly..
starting to wonder what it would be like i didn transfer school..

lyrics that meant so much to me..

seasons in the sun

Goodbye to you, my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we climbed hills and trees
Learned of Love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees

Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I’ll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had Seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just Seasons out of time

Goodbye Papa, please pray for me
I was the Black Sheep of the Family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along

Goodbye Papa, it's hard to die
When all the bird's are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little Children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had Seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the Seasons have all gone

We had joy, we had fun, we had Seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time

Goodbye Michelle, my little one
You gave me Love and helped me find the sun
And every time when I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground

Goodbye Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

we had joy, we had fun, we had sesons in the sun
but the hills that we climbed,are just seasons out of time

We had joy, we had fun, we had Seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song, like the Seasons, have all gone

top of the world

Top Of The World lyrics

Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream.

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven

that I've seen.

I'm on the top of the world lookin'

down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since

you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world.

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch

of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me.

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope

that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same

for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here.

I'm on the top of the world lookin'

down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since

you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world.

2009-06-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

Lights out and i found my shining star.

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
have been back to malaysia for the past whole week.
there's aint really comp there so i cant blog or anything..
hmm shall talk about the past week (:

saturday , reached msia quite late, slept.
sunday (!) wahaha something special (:
averyllimzhihui and her lovely cute family came to my homeplace !
woots. showed her around and went to have supper together . woots !
wahaha. funness that woman. :D
monday. cant rmb much. slacked. ride bike. ate durian.
tuesday. cant rmb much. slacked. ride bike. ate durian.
wednesday. rained. wanted to go lan and use com but it rained so yeah. stayed home and do homework. no bike riding, it was raining. ate durian.
thursday. went out to lan , used comp, finished my heymath, did badly as usual. haiz. checked out some blogs. went home, do hmwk. ride bike. ate durian.
friday . do hmwk. ride bike. ate durian.
saturday. dad came back . ride bike. drove car. ate durian.
sunday. had lunch and went back singapore.

bye. shall post more next time.
i really ate lot of durian !!!!!

2009-06-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

Painkillers.
sometimes i wish so so hard that the painkillers can kill pain inside.
instead of the pain on the ouside..

went out with jaime yesterday !
library, t1 , sushi tei, frolick !
saw amanda koh, hannah tan at the library !
jaime saw zephan.. something [ i really dont know how to spell..]
weird.
t1 . arcade (:
saw yijun there !
her cousin is damn cute :D
sushi tei was freaking ex ..
froooooolick was great !
never thought frozen ice cream to be so nice !
then went back to our place ,
meet up with cht and play volleyball ^^
ahh yeah baby ! :D

training was ... arghish.
vernis didnt ate breakfast and puked her acids out . [ in the toilet ]
then had training.
leg started hurting when warm up havent even finish .. -.-
then after finishing full court lay up my leg was screwed up.
told the coach that i cant train anymore and was resting with vernis.
lol. but after a while then he drag us go back and train -.-
retarded shit loh. vernis sick i injured leh..
no wonder rhesa threw that ball.. * smirks *
after training went to eat at 85 with yijun and vernis.
then took 17 to accompany vernis , dropped off at pasir ris int with yijun and took 15 home together..
bus ride was freaking long..

at home ...
mum keeps on forcing me to quit basketball..

The only reason painkillers are of no use to me ,
is cause it wont stop hurting inside no matter how comfortable my leg is.

happy 30 days to my injury -.-
remember to congratulate me.

CLICK ! youtube link of a song that i feel now..

lyrics..

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

2009-06-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

haha sorry, its been like forever since i updated ><
topping off with a picture of my lovely 6808 girlfriends <3!

last week monday tues and wed..
cant freaking rmb what happened where i went what i do. argh.

THURSDAY (11 JUNE)
wahaha went out with amanda. had lunch at tm, pasta mania.
7 inch hawaii pizza was nice :D
got some stuffs at ntuc , then headed off to giant !
bought many many things for the 6808 bbq.

went out with cousins at night to ehub,
watched ghost of girlfriends past ! it was niccccce :D
and played arcade basketball <3.
beat my cousin by few points. wahaha.

FRIDAY !!!! (12 june)

woots! have been waiting this day to come like since forever !
went out to macs, meet up with jenna and merissa.
averyl was freaking late -.-
wahaha had big breakfast :D yay !
off load our stuffs at merissa's and headed off to ehub to meet buwek.
meet up with buwek, went to have lunch at pasta mania.
shared some alfredo thingy with averyl , super nice !
then went to 5th level to go kbox.
wanted to pay then realize my freaking wallet was bloody lost _l_
mum screamed at me over the phone, felt some just some piece of shit that doesnt matter to her.. oh wait, arent i ? ..
then dont care le.. sing my heart out and felt really great ((:
halfway screaming into the mic, some dude called me and said he picked up my wallet.
then i have to cab all the way to some bus stop and take -.- woah lao. then the cab driver took the long way and people in the back started singing " going right roung right round "
apparrently the driver notice and took the shorter way (?)
lol met the guy and took my wallet back. all my freaking cash was freaking gone. argh. damn it luh.
then went baack to merissa's and had KFC near her place ..
her cousins are super cute luh :D
finished up and went back to her place. :D
after bathing , played some board games, didn't finished anyway._.
then played psp, talked and do girl stuffs .. haha.
finished sorting out how we sleep, went to watch movie on psp with averyl.
it was kinda boring if youre like chao lackiong of sleep ..
slept beside avery at ard 2 plus, woke up at 5 and buwek was awake too.
she played psp while i lay on her bed [ which is obviously much more comfortable than getting cramped beside a camel :P ]
then went back to sleeping beside averyl cause buwek was also sleeping and didnt want it to be so squezzy for her.
woke up at 8 plus and zonked out again
. finally waking up at 10 plus, brushed my teeth and ate some breakfast.
merissa fried eggs and ate some cake.
then use merissas sis laptop for while ..
the rest were making some movie.. i was half asleep ZzZ..

then headed off for changi beach, saw many many people that i havent saw for a long long time..
after meeting jan we went to changi village and had lunch, didnt bring money so i only drank some green tea. -.-
then went back there and started playing volleyball , with jan's lovely volleyball!
shortly after , we started the fire .. before the fire even like go .. so hot then wind starterd to blow..
it started to rain -.-
then we were like hugging each other under umbrella and eating half cooked potatoes...
such simple joy (: they'll last forever..
then the rain stopped ^^ though the hunger in us didnt :X
bbq mushrooms!
dipped them into honey and left them there to roast while i go and play volleyball ^^ yays.
woah i'm actully not that rusty than i thought cause its been like forever since i even played volleyball..
had sooooo much fun! its been a while since i've had so much fun just simply playing the sports that i love so very much <3
wahaha then it was getting quite late and people started leaving..
so after packing up our stuffs we wanted to go for dinner at the changi village again,
but then ja suddenly asked..
" hey you guys wanna come my house sleepover ? "
wahaha everyone was excited and started calling their parents.
my mum and dad allowed ! like yay man ! but then yuwen and jenna cant..

okay i'm gonna skip alot here.. dont wanna blog about it.. but here'a msg for you..
if thats who you are, who you gon be, what you feel. then theres absolutely nothing i can do..
but promise me to be safe, wherever your heart goes. i'm here always.

then after bathing and packing stuffs, went to pick merissa up and went to jan's house.
after reaching , ate some JUGABEE at her place and went back to her room.
averyl and merissa were playing with jan's IPHONE , which totally rocks like omg.
while me and jan were playing volleyball on the bed .
haha. then the rest went to sleep while i was on the net with jan's iphone.
finally went to sleep at like 3 plus..

what an eventful day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA KOH! haha (:

SATURDAY ( 13 JUNE )

woke up at 11 plus.
averyl and merissa were having a pillow fight.
LOL. then bathed and stuffs.
went out to KFC and had late breakfast \ lunch together with jan's dad and cousin.
wahaha the fried shrimp is really nice..
then jans dad sent us off to kallang mrt and we trained back to tamp.
averyl took 22 and me and merissa took 293.
bought bbt and went home. lols.
was super super tired but still manage to slap myself awake and went out with parents to T1. haha quite nice though i was half asleep..
woahhhh, i wanna get smt but it was like so ex -.- my mum found it and told me
but it wasnt on sale or anything so didnt buy.. lols.

:X okay, shall only post eventfuls days ?

TUEDAY ( 17 JUNE )
woke up bloody early today.
went to school , had training.
leg pain , took painkillers.
borrowed new moon from yijun !
rahh i wanna start today :D went home,
sleeeeeeeeep for like 3 and a half hours..
had kimchi pot for dinner,
my mums' an awesome cook yeah.

the pain comes back when its suppose to be far far away.

lols
shall end here, its getting late and i woke up at 7.15 today.

2009-06-07T10:19:00.000-07:00

grit your teeth and clench your fist.
get ready to overcome the pain.

so friday ,
was the fivenineohseven ♥ bbq .
it was great yeah.
meet up with sijin fiona & natasha at tamp ,
then trained our way down [or up ] to aljunied.
met up with shannon and yijun [ 5/9'07 ]
and went to geylang to collect the catered stuffs.
lols. then went back to tamp and meet up with yuwen.
hahaha then went to sijins house to ~~sleep~~ plan games.
it was a terrible fail to plan any games .
lol, every one was too lazy and tired to move so we ended up ~~sleeping~~ laying about in her living room.

wahaha the time finally came !
went down , prepare the fire and started cooking stuffs.
more and more people came, more and more food was prepared to be bbq-ed.
wahaha damn fun and damn hot.
some girls and guys were playing soccer ?
with a bottle cap.
alot of screaming and busy commentators running around with a prawn on a stick asking people how they felt about scoring a goal. LOL.

was freaking exhausted when the bbq-ing finally stopped.
wahaha at that time people like playing block catching?
lols they have the energy man, i was dead tired. and smelly from the bbq -.-
then had some drinks and ate some stuffs.
i dropped a corn from the table after buttering it -.-

hahahaha then had " debrief session " which was also a stupid lie [ made up by julia ] to get people to play truth or dare.
wahahaha some did " i'm a girl pumping " , crush naming blahblah.
some were asked who to take to a prom , etc.

wahaha then went to take a few group pics,
argh by then alot people alr go home le,
but will managed to take luh ! :D
wahahaha i had fun man ^^

sat and sun , went back to msia, missed the homerun 09 ):
argh -.-
wow balek kampong does help.

PICTURES !

Fun at sijin's !

wahahaha, buwek and me by the poolside.

Me and buwek,
featuring fiona's BUTT!

wahahah buwek and me, being bbq-ed [?]
> hahahaha.

whoooosh !

bbq pit [ daytime ] whoosh 5/9'07 is loveeeee <3 style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_jyrO4jvGLk4/SiwCvm25boI/AAAAAAAAAO4/7OOMBzMyFLI/s320/DSC08011.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344649874689846914" border="0">FIVENINEOHSEVEN. griffiti done by me , on the bbq pit ((:

bbq pit [ at night ]

glowing flame ^^marshmallow spitting woman , audrey, juliet yuwen. [ she was being racist and vinod was supporting her ]

5/9'07
Trust.

ending this post cause i'm damn tired and its 2.31 am -.-

grit my teeth and clench my fist,
that's the way i survied through this life.

'byes' to you.
'why are you still staying? ' to the pain.

take care k raelene !
i'm gonna slaughter you if you dont ;)
whahaha

2009-06-03T07:07:00.000-07:00

I finally stopped,
stopped making sense.

these few days were .. quite boring.

monday ,
brought my bro to the library.. met up with julia there..
went bbq shopping with 5/9'07 <3!
ate JUGABEE <3 and kinder JOY !

tuesday
cant rmb much.. :X

wed [ today ]
stayed at home..

5/9'07 bbq's tmr, looking forward ^^

i'm tired, i'm lonely, i'm missing you again.
argh i hate life now.

2009-05-31T03:29:00.000-07:00

Happiness,
its something within our hands.

Saturday(yesterday)
_________________________

Woke up with feeling zhao high, cause i finally slept for more than 6 hours -.-
then leg was the same.. ._.
told my mama i wanted to go see doc and got scolded by her again. wth.
so, mood wasnt very good during the day time but haha night was the bomb yeah !
went out at night to ehub with YUWEN <3 !
lols met up , had dinner at fish & co.
then met up with SHUJUAN !
went arcade and spent some money on the basketball machine.
woots, darn fun!
hahaha then had cup walker .. then walk walk for while...
after that shujuan went off , to her chalet (?)
then went to the outside of ehub with buwek and talked for while..
hahaha then parents came to pick me up and send buwek home..

[added on]

today i made a new friend, XINYING !
wahaha, went home, bathed and came out and saw my phone
" MISSED CALLS : 7 "
and i called back to yijun's no..
it was xinying .
talked on the phone for while and started sms-ing cause yijun was pissed ( ? )
LOL.

had fun <3 ! ^^
b y e .

dang, what's wrong with my leg.

2009-05-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

"Try to relax,
Don’t rely on the facts,
Not a thing you can do,
But it’s all up to you.

Can’t handle the pressure?
I tried to measure,
You know how I feel?
You finish the deal!

Don’t want to create?
It’s driving me irate,
Don’t like the trouble?
Do it now, on the double.

Don’t like the intake?
None of this is fake.
Don’t try to give up now,
This I just cannot allow. "

SCHOOL WAS SO FUN OMGZXXZXZXZ.
hahaha morning assembly was ... ._.
then went back class ..
to do the nomination , [ that i didnt hand up ]
to finish my geog brochure.
to help out with the chinese board thingy.
then had recess.
had class comm meeting during recess then went down to eat.
got back up and started to do..

SPRING CLEANING !

woots, it was so much fun!
the 160 > people [ me and a bunch of ppl ] started cleaning the windows.
some other cleaned fans, tables, doors and many many more.
bunch of people started taking photos of people cleaning !
hahaha darn funny.
then after dismissal, went to meet jean and vernis.

after school was .. haiz.
then meet yijun somewhere near hostel ..
felt bored and decided to go 85 with jean to get bbt .
hahaha then came back and watched yijun and amanda play pool for while.
damn pro sia. lols.
then started training...
ran 10 rounds court for warm up, 2 rounds of stairs.
then started training..

i went to train with the team..
did the 4corners ( sijiao ?) thing..
keep on running wrong place, passing like shit, lay-up like wtf.
haiz damn it pressurising ):

did some defending thing..
jean and vernis joined in ((:
was not that as scary as the si jiao,
only have to defend and dribble.

then did some faking - lay up / shoot.
damn it scared and screwed up everything like shitzxxzxzxz.
argh. only like got in a few . haiz ):

then did some like pressur-ing ( as a defender )
haha teamed into 3,together with vernis and jean !
this was fun ((: aint that bad.

then were free to shoot and whatever.

after that training end le,
allowed to leave but didn't.
jean left -.-
stayed for while then went to canteen to eat cup noodles with vernis.
TOMYAMM IS LOVE <3.
lols queued damn long cause the auntie keep dao-ing us -.-
then sent vernis and her books to the 17 bus stop cause her hand was bit sprained .
then waited for my father to come fetch me.
lols.

stupid pressure.
go away.
i wanna play basketball happily .

stupid pain .
go away.
i wanna play basketball comfortably.

2009-05-28T06:37:00.000-07:00

Tear my wings down,
I'm too tired to fly anymore.

DA:

"I'm tired.
Tired of feeling lost, afraid, misunderstood.
Tired of wondering if I'm letting someone down by the choices I've made.
I'm tired.
Tired of getting my feelings hurt, my hopes drowned, my heart broken.
Tired of showing these varmin called emotions.
I'm tired.
Tired of being me, of being weak.
Tired of trying to be this person I cannot see.
I'm tired.
Tired of all the pain, all the struggle I've put upon myself.
Tired of not being the person I was.
I'm tired.
Tired of hiding, hoping, and healing.
Tired of listening, learning...letting.
I'm tired...I'm tired."

T.I.R.E.D. is the exact word to describe this week..
had been really busy nowadays ,
monday,
training ,
freaking tired,
had hmwk to do.
tuesday,
went out to tm with huiting and krystin,
and played basketball with huiting and jamie,
had hmwk to do, freaking tired.
hurt my bloody leg .
wednesday,
training and yijun's celebration.
vernis pangseh me ._.
went home at 7 and was freaking tired.
had hmwk to do.
thursday, (today )
had lite and geog farewell today.
))))))):
i'm so gonna miss mrs chew and ms teo man.
pe was fun (:
AMB rocks. i want AMB outing! XD LOL.
then carried a big big bag of books and bused home with ju.

this week for me was like .. crap.
everyday go to school DEAD. DEAD TIRED. ):

leg is hurting,
should i go for training tommorrow.. ?
i'm afraid to hurt my leg further.
i want a break please.

argh sorry for not replying tags and linking,
had been really busy and too tired to log in to blogger.

bye,
off to link and tag.

2009-05-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

Stressed out.
Beyong what words can say.

i'm still freaking doing the bloody stupid SEL project.
i dun want to care anymore.
but i cant.

screw it luh,
whats wrong with me..
screwed up a friendship yest..
damn i will not talk about it.

today had training ,
damn tired.
still cant go to sleep.
freakass.

then come back home choing the stupid project.
went crazy and nearly pulled me hair out.
what the hell..

ARGH WHATS WRONG WITH ME.
I AM SORRY.
really really sorry..
i dunno whats wrong with me..
why i suddenly became so agitated..
why i suddenly became so screwed..
why i suddenly became so stressed...
sorry..
SORRY.

thanks so so much
for being there for me when the world came crushing down on me..
for being such a caring friend, even more than my parent..
for making me laugh and smile when i felt like crying and frowning...
for encouraging me, hearing all my troubles and helping me through them..
for walking into my life when the rest of the world walked out..
for being a TRUE friend..
THANKS ILOVEYOU.
thanks so much raelene..
take care...